Many trials ..but still strong...the energy from a song can keep you going ^^

Yes...

where can i start...

well i missed the bus this morning and have to replace class tomorrow night...FRIDAY NIGHT!

but well ~

I don't know ...i think Maya's words are pushing me ~

I know my Japanese is not that good...but i can understand the meaning of Maya's words in Bokura no Mirai ( Our future)

As you can see ~ ...the title itself is motivating ...

I was anticipating this song ...because the tune is actually played out in a sentimental tune as an ending song for...well...i did explain didn't I ( read previous blog XD) ...haha

I know ~ ...it's something that would make me feel my heartbeat ~

andbroughtmetotears

yes ~ ..makes me think back of all the tears we shed back there the wiped ones ^^~ ...

I still have a long way to go...but i have come too far to give up now ~

FOR OUR FUTURE ....for my dream ~

Aiji was right ~

i'd spam my blog if i told you all the meaning !

simple japanese ~

Anyone having basic understanding of japanese would understand this song !

Maya is telling us that we have gone through so much and the the dreams and future we are looking forward is near ~

we all can relate to that song right ??

like ..i've seen post on FB ...everyone was emo , tired , frustrated , angry ....

this song came into the picture at the right time ~

thanks Maya & Aiji....

there you go ~ the song

bokura no mirai preview

yeah ..kanji and romaji is there so ...^^

stay motivated all ^^

I don't have to go through translations to know that "meteorion " and "it's a wonderful wonderworld " to know that they too are motivating songs ~ ^^

Wonderful wonderholic is just wonderful ~

enjoy the concert guys ~

hope they stop here someday ~ ^^

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ahhh..i'm so absorbed in this song that i can't think !!!! lol

* happy feeling*

makes me happy even though so much problems aren't solved ~

Happy ....

this word is finally back in my life ~ ...

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Anyways ....

I'm having problems making an appointment with my supervisor ~

how?....

we went there about6 to 7 times ...still no one ~

um ~ mid- terms are here~

assignments ~

the trip ~ ...( miss-communications)

everyone is pointing fingers ....i'm not siding anyone ~

there is no doubt that everyone has their points ....

Ganbatee ne ~ ...minna ~

it's all part of this monochrome life ~ ...

black and white ~ ....

everyone has their problems and hidden sorrows ~

and no one knows that better than you yourselves right ??

lol ...

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owh !! during my 1 hour +++ bus wait...i saw someone ALMOST got hit by a car!!!!!

OMGOMGOMG !!!!

my heart almost fell out !!!

lucky the guy behind the wheels got fast reflexes and jammed the breaks ON time !!!

this guy (walking) just got down from the shuttle bus and walk in front of the bus !

i never do that !! because there is a blind spot there !!!

I mean...if the guy was going like 5 kmph faster ...i would be blogging bout "an accident i saw!!"

I MEAN THE FREKIN' GUY WAS RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE CAR!!!

MIDDLEEEEEE !!

dang! there was like 1/2 an inch between that guy and the Myvi ( with all the bodykit and everything i might add ~)

A SHOUT OUT PPL!!! NEVER CROSS THE ROAD FORM THE FRONT OF A BUS A AFTER COMING OFF IT!!!

and when crossing from the back...be sure to go a little further back ...coz the bus is one big pile of metal and rubber ...it may fall back anytime if the driver isn't alert !! ...

lol...i sound like a naggy old hag ~ ...gomen ~

stay safe ppl !

gosh i wanted to settle in and hit dreamland a little "early" but it's already 1 AM !!!

time flies ! ...

ja....

oyasumi ~

^^

stay genki ~

-Miyuki-

#$%^&*(

yup ~ i'm trash after all

but so what ?

nothing more everything less....

is one and treated like one ~

The world is turning into a negative pile of junk ~

ただそれだけ~

I'm tired

I bet everyone is ----tired---

of assignments of work of internship of projects organizing trips ect ect... i know i am

I was so stressed that i got into a "fight" with Aki ~

felt like it since last friday ~

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Anyhooo...a post means there is some sort of complaint...lol go-me-n~

Yup...being a leader kinda sucks when all are on your shoulders ~

i don't know ~

l my parents ,Senpai, Aki, and a friend back in HS who is studying here told me that i'll grow up to be a stronger more experienced person ~

Yeah...this is a trial for me....everything is ~

if i back down from life ..then my parents spent all those years bringing me up for nothing ~

they never expect good results from me or pressure me in anyway ~

and thanks to them my future is secured ~

Senpai who is going through a harder time is always there for me ~

Aki is always there to heal ~

not forgetting the others that cared and tried to pull me out from the dark ~

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I got "Sleep" and is getting WFWH....

CAN I JUST SAY HOW JAW DROPPING WFWH IS !!

i have to admit that their previous albums...well...not so good...i only liked the singles~

Maya & Aiji said ( from what i understand) that this is a new LM.C or somesort...and form their blogs you can see that Aiji and maya were working hard ..they even flew all the way to NYC to get it mastered ~

wonderful wonderholic is just amazing

i'm already in love with [Meteorion ] ....the best song i've herd so far.....i'm saving the best for last ...i haven't heard bokura no mirai ~ ...from the trailer and " rock the party 08'" ending ...i'm guessing that it is a good song..i bet we are all wondering how the electrorock version would turn out to be because we heard the piano instrumental version 2 years ago ~

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oh well enough with my fangirling ~

i have to hit the books for pedagogy ~

wish me luck guys ~

and best of luck to senpai !

and ..YAY...i just got WFWH!!!

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"each day is a gift and not a given right "

~

life isn't fair ~

Can't sleep ~

It is now 2.14 am ...

I'm still awake...

obviously ~

was tossing and turning ~

can't seem to get any shut eye ....

my mind is filled with thoughts ~

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well...today didn't go too well

and i'm coming down with something ~Plus...i need to get some stuff done ~

So i'm taking one class off...heck if its not for the mid-term i'd take the whole day of....

i don't feel like rambling bout this one ....

it just feels like happiness is torn away form me and a bullet hits my chest every now and then ~

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anyways, i stalked senpai's blog XD

and i saw the wish thingy she bought ~

I can;t believe this because i got that as a gift 3 years ago... almost as big as a mineral bottle ~

yappari futago desune ~

i started to write my wish in those rolled up papers and put them back in just to keep myself going...and you know what??...all the wishes came true....

of course you have to write down realistic ones ^^

like how i wanted to get good results in my STPM...

how i wanted to enter local U ~...

how i wanted to get W-inds DVD or VCDs

and finally....how i wanted to learn Japanese ~

all that came true ~

haha...i don't dare to bring it along because i'm scared that it would break ~

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arigatou~ soshite gomennasai

for all that messaged me and was worried .....

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I bet you all wondered why i didn't want to talk, msn ect ect and yet kept it on BUSY ~

i just felt a little lonely , didn't want to talk bout it but just want my present to be known ~

etooo...something like that ......ka na ~ ~

complicated eh ~

hum hum'

i thought so too ~

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totaly random ~

i thought of a thought ,

but the thought that i thought wasn't the thought I thought you thought I thought....

I thought ~

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some mind stuff...it makes sense ( the sentence )! ...read it carefully ...XD it is also a tongue twister Akane came up with ~

I thin i should at least try to sleep....

i'm getting insomnia pretty much every night ~

*sigh*

OHASUMIIIII~~~

Forgot!!!

Okies...i didn't realize that today is the last day of Chinese New Year!!!!

If senpai didn't update her blog about it then i'd totaly forgot !

Yeah... i haven't talked in a few days now ! SERIOUSLYYY!

that happens when you basically live alone in a room ..lol

That's why i got into an emo phase and basically did nothing at all except stare into my lappy and eating junk !

okies....maybe today i'll use my rice cooker to wip up a steam boat like thingy ~

only...I have to do more work coz i have no chicken stock cubes !

so..i'll have to cook up the stock myself....nyuuu~

let's see what i have....hot dog, a few crab sticks , some frozen nuggets , prawns ...etooo...that's about it....i hope AKI doesn't mind the pitiful dinner ~ haha

Those spending their time at home should appreciate the time they have with their families ^^

I miss home so much now...and i don't dare to call because of the state of my emotion~

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Anywayssss!! today is also Chinese valentine's day ~

and also the last day you can go bai nian

and to collect all those decorations!!....

I was the one putting them up ...haiz...i wish i was home doing all those housework !!

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OKEYY...i have to be more cheerful here ( somehow)

i have lots of studies and shukudai to cover here so ~ ...haiz ~ ....

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let's list them out....

monday...full class day ~...eto ..and sociology mid-term shiken ~

tuesday~....meeting in the morning and class later that day~...plus..have to study for pedagogy...

wenesday...pedagogy mid-term shiken ~

thursday: tireing japanese class followed by pedagogy.....and DAMN! i forgot bout the tutorial logo stuff !!

@#$%^&

guess i'll be missing in action these few days ...gosh i sooo wanna have a break from all these ~

and the weather is so damn hot...

ahhh~..why can't they give us a "summer " break ....

you know.. people living is 4 season regions have natsuyasumi for a very good reason...because its too hot to study ~

haiz...*lifeless*

oh and PLEEEAASSSEEEEEE!!! I JUST WANT SOME PEACE AND QUIET!!

i hate HIGHI PITCHED voice !!

*sigh*

anyways...hope you all have a nice day ^^

WHAT IN HELL IS WRONG PEOPLE??!!

You know...growing up in an environment where you can detect what teachers and parents want from you and do it the way they please to get credits really have a down side to it!

I MEANNNNN didn't she lay it out flat EXACTLY wha she wanted??

I'm so tired of doing compiling work ....

I HATE MY LIFE !

.....

why does everyone do this to me.....??

and it's hard...because when you want to do a good job, and you do it ...people either rate you as ..i dunno...a perfectionist??

Tell you what....my life would be so damn different now if it wasn't for my stupid passion for being a teacher and continuing this blood line of teachers ~

I would be sent to a place where i would easily blend ....

and to a quality one at that....

yes ...a quality education....

i don't know.....i'm in a depressing mood today and PLEASE...i hope there are no calls from home ..coz that brings out my week side ....then it would make me 10 X worse...

there future is bleak ~

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I wonder what people label me as~

I know i'm a crybaby...i don't smile a lot...and heck...people are afraid to approach me and yet try to take advantage of me ~

not trying to intimidate people ...but like i said ....i have eyes that could see through ones true intention ...

I used to use it to get myself out of trouble ....

If there was a day where people do their work telling themselves " oh...i don't want to make it difficult for the person doing the final works" then ...I'll be on the Oricon Charts...BELIEVE ME ~

Aki -kun is trying his best to calm me down...i hope his efforts is not in vain....

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have mid-terms and assignments to do....

oh well...PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEE....don't let AKI's effort be in VAINNN......

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*takes deep breath ....listen to heartbeat...concentrate on what's good....*

sigh ~

help ....

Missing in action...well not really XD

Finally...submitted the proposal....

I guess all that pressure finally kicked in and i was down with a slight fever...

hence settling in early~

Sorry to all of you waiting for my "brb" 's and waiting for me on MSN ....

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My mood was a flare the night i was rushing ~

I guess i'm half immune to this...people doing work that is not that fine ~

Just write everything out without a second look. Of course there were a few that did a really good job. but there were some that really churns your gut !

I edited like half of it during CNY...and believe me ! its no walk in the park. I got the rest of the work from others and continued reading through. Find tonnes of mistakes that dosen't click....

yes all that makes me super mad...and i gave up trying to make it a good work.

The worse thing was getting CALLS which and TEXT reminding me of the due date and that the COVER MUST BE PINK!!!

I got that AGES ago...!!

I had a busy week ...and you all should be more responsible ...texting and reminding is just to re-enforce your own feelings....

Plus..i need to remind you all who are NOT doing the compiling and editing work..try NOT to just type everything up to the page limit and expect the editor to do ALL of it just because you copy and paste or just basically key in stuff!!

*takes deep breath*

CHANGE of subject !

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owh...when something interesting happens i always remind people that i will blog bout it but end up with BS ..lol

anyways...

i have no idea ...but Japanese class was moved from the Language School to another faculty building...

school of engineering and communication tecnology or something.....

GOSH THAT SCHOOL IS HUGEEEEE!!

"THE CURSE OF SKTM"

if you don't enter from the foyer...you are bound to get lost!...

i mean ...group 2's class is moved to the SSMP..( some sort of food research facaulty or something) and i could find the place pretty quickly!

i had to get 3 buses to get in there btw ~...lol

but in SKTM...0-0....

i was like a lost puppy..a wet one at that...! sweating and all ..lol

some classes got move to the school of learning arts ~

so...

why the sudden changes in class...and why so far? and in different Schools??!!

GET THIS....

The language building isn't stable...there is a crack or something and may fall anytime...( that's what Ike Sensei said)

Kinda scared every time i go through that building...!

coz i have to go through it to get to my faculty ~ lol

i remember once where the window pains ( i think its PVC) started to crash down ...those covering the stairways~while we were having classes...

anyways....the building is not OLD.... so why all these talk bout the building being a time bomb...??

and the lecturers are still using their rooms and offices there ~

i just don't get it ~

oh well ~

maybe i'll write more when i have something more interesting lol....

ja matta ~

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sorry...my sentences are all over the place...lol

Rest well senpai...assignment frenzy/maddness ~

rest well senpai...hope you feel better tomorrow...i know i will feel 10 times better tomorrow night !

Because i will be dating AKI XD....

and maybe we could arrange another one of those double dates with senpai and Mao san ~

browsed through phones last time we had a double date ~ ^^

ended up with none of the phones i browse with senpai mao and aki -kun...

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anyways ~

i'm having a little stress..wait... a LOT of stress...

THANK GOD my friend sms me to tell me that the script is due tomorrow !!

IT TOTALLY SLIPPED MY MIND !

so i have to rush to finish editing and also do my script...i know...will wake up early to go to the library to get the binding done ~

then spend the 2 hours there doing the script ~

;)

the thing now is to get past the hard part of editing.,... I WILL NOT DO THIS AGAIN!

so tough ~

i'm done ~

i edited all i could and i give up ~

i'll just submit what they gave to me ~

i'm calmer now...after Mao made me some coffee and offered some black chocolate...

most importantly i realize that i'm not the only one going through hard times ...senpai, and my friends are going through the same thing ~ ....

oh...aki took over ^^

Mao is heading back at this late hour to take good care of Senpai....

he HAS to..before those younger korean kids take senpai away from him XD ....

i guess i have rested and calmed down enough to complete my assignments and head to bed ~

Don't over stress yourselves everyone~

love you all ^^

* p/s: for those who happen to read the really angry words that i deleted .. !*

ごめんなさい!!

For those of you not that passionate about music ..you can skip the following post ~

lol

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listening to 88 by LM.C...lots of meaning...touching song

looking forward to Bokura no Mirai ~

i heard the trailer and some alert people actually detected that the tune is actually from the ending piano music form * Rock the Party '08*

Kudos to you !

yes ..that song sounds nice ..

Maya is getting better at writing lyrics ne ~

like Aiji said~

they might look like some wired people ..( i seriously wouldn't approach people looking like that on the streets unless it's maya or aiji)...but just open your hearts and ears to listen to their meaning full songs....

YUI songs are great too...

I tried to listen to Taylor swift's songs..but yeah.. haha..all about love...and too much make-up...

i was watching some of her MVs and i fell so much like washing my face ...coz her face is just loaded with chemicals ...music is okey...just too...um....how to explain...the song just don't match the PV...tune is nice though...(some) no offence to Taylor Swift's fans ...^^..just justifying my opinion...

Like how some people can't stand LM.C ....

for me ...music quality and simplicity counts ~

YUI offers simplicity and that down to earth relation...

LM.C offers a hand to hold ~ and a reason to never give up ~

You all should look into some of their songs ....

Rock the LM.C,

Punky Heart

88 ...

Liar liar...

some of their songs point out the reality we are facing...

Maya's inspiring work keeps many going...and is spreading world wide~

hope you all never give up....

Love ...

Miyuki~

*aki is jealous*

keke

Holidays are over ~...taking bout monday blues ~

konyaranyara ~

Everyone is gonna be in an after holiday daze~

i know i will ...nyaaa

but still ...if you try to enjoy it then maybe it will be okey ^^

to top that...i'm still travel sick...and i caught a flu from sis ~ nyuuu ~

sinus would be different..i wouldn't tear that much ~

Gosh i look terrible!!..like i cried a whole year or something lol~

besides...i seldom get sinus now thanks to this spray i used a couple of years ago..~

i use to suffer like this every morning..or every time the temperature changes !

I only get it on hazy days ~ on certain conditions XD

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Tomorrow will be back to normal...in fact, i have the assignment to rush !! ..i finished the editing...but i havent started my part! coz of all the house work and also time spent on editing...( gosh i hate this job!!)

oh well...mid- term tomorrow...guess i'll have to print the slides out to do a last minute study ~

i really didn't have the time for studies during the holidays...for me...family is the most important before anything ~

fail ma si fail looooo~ ( hokkien ) lol

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Anywaws...hope you all out there can endure the evil monday and the evil week ahead...

everything is a rush this semester since its a short sem~

Gyahhhh ~

ganbaruuu!

chisaana tsubasa o hirogete miageru...kono sora wa taka sugiru kedo ...

tobanaii ii wake o nara bete utsumuite ...aruku nan teeee...BOKURA NI WA NIAWANAI !!

*fighting spirit*

MINAAA!!!AKIRAMENAIDE!!!

Last night at home for CNY holidays ~..more reviews ^^

Nyaahhh...having mixed feelings about leaving home ...this 12 days seems like a long holiday ...it felt like a month ! so its a good thing...bad thing is~...every good thing has to come to an end ~

I dragged on my exam studies ...edited my assignments ...but havent done my part ~

guess going back means i have to face a rush !

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Okies...senpai's request desu !

More pics and review of my new phone

Can change the font!! which i find cute ^^

Got album art ~ ..^^...was about to get the SE W...something ..thin one ~ ..but screen too small ^^""

so yay..

Pink not my fav colour...but the white one is the one on display left ~ ..but there are 3 designs free ^^ ( or for smart ppl... 3 housing..you paid for itt duhhh!)

quite flat...the way i like it ^^..but seems dangerous..coz like soap lol...feel like it can slip out of my hands easily...

AT first i wanted to get the same phone as sis...bit then ..come to think of it..it will jam a little when you touch and pull the pics...Samsung..not at all ^^

G900 screen too small...plus..there must be a really good reason why the price reduce so drastically !!

drawbacks??

too new desu!

they provide the screen protector..but mine not stick on properly!!.and i took out..stick back...not secure enough and the sticker came off when i take the hp out of my jeans ...now no choice..the screen full of dust...>w<....screen protector not out yet !! didn;t realize that it is THAT new ~ nyuuuu~

camera..better than my onld w300i camera...but still not as good as G900...only 2mp...but i have a 7mp camera...so ^^

no wi fi TwT

sound quality for SE 10 times better

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good stuff??

can watch movie lol....wide screen !

very stylish

easy to use ~

lightweight and flat

colourful ^^

the camera is not too bad actually ^^

could be the cheapest fully touch screen phone out there ~

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will tell if there are any glitches ^^

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To those who are push to the limit...an d want to give up...onegai...akiramenaide !

never give up...look how far have you come !!

ganbate !!!

^^

More visiting ^~^...CORBYYY!

Just got back form another round of CNY visiting ...nyuuu~

Its fun to hang out with old friends ne ~ but i'm just held back by assignments ^^

took a few crazy pics ...you can check it out in FB ^^

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I ended up getting Samsung instead of SE ....because the G900 was was too expensive at the place i was browsing...turns out that the model is not out of stock in Farley T_T...

oh well...there are drawbacks for that SE model too...eventhough i'm quite a SE fan ~

waiiittt~

that means i owned pretty much every well known brand...Motorola , Nokia, Sony Errisson and now Samsung! ..lol...

I got the Samsung Corby.

Fully touch screen ..and i have no idea how new it is ( pretty new)

got it for a bargain ^^

can't find any lower price anywhere else ( even at farley)

nice ...but i have to pretty much learn everything from scratch !

Not as easy to use as SE....

camera ...not so good only a pittiful 2MP...bit i have a good camera so ~ ^^

Comes with 2 extra housing ...so i got the pink one...wanted the white but there were no new one...onely the one on display. Mum said that pink is the nicest...^^...but i can change it to black or pink with design anytime i want ^^

hehe...finally figured out the right settings to convert the vid...so ta daaaaa...

Sleep is in there ^^ ( happy)

but the most important thing is...i don't have to listen to people complaining that thay can't hear me...my mic broke ...the reson i got a new one ^^...gonna use this phone for a looong time so...i have to love it ^^....

absolutely love the wide screen ^^

HAPPY YEAR OF THE METAL TIGER! ...and a little Music review

haha...i'm not too late am i ??

As usual i'm busy...

now that all the heavy duty work is done ( mainly housework ) , i have to hit the books and also face my lappy again ..sigh ~

This is a new year with mixed feelings !

^^

Bai Nian with high school friends ...i miss high school life already...being able to see all of them makes me appreciate the times we spent together ~

Not all were there since some of them went back to grandparent's place ~

I know i would be missing too..but this year i spend it here ..not as bad as i thought it would be...

But still...i want to see wai gong and wai po ~

my uncle and aunts ...and not forgetting my cousins ~

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Anyhoo~

If you guys check out my FB...you would see some pics of the new year...

^^

yes ! we invited the lion dance over !

It would have been more entertaining if i was looking with my own eyes ...

but i'm always the one handling the camera so i only saw it through the camera screen...

sigh~

oh well ^^

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now for LM.C & シド talk!!

i know i;m supposed to talk all about the new year or complain about assignments ..lol

but nothing hits me more than talking bout music !!

シド is up first!

OMG~...another Namada no onda -like song ~

I have to admit that i don't like シド's early songs ~ a bit too visual for my ears ~

*pleasedonthateme*

But WOW~ thay changed so much since the heavy make-up days ~

i love the PV,:

the way they use the high speed camera to capture more frames ...make stuff stick out

The mirrors ..how when one walks over it reflects another ~

The song ~

OMG...so warmmmmm~

i love how you can actually hear all the sounds ...vocals , drums, guitar and also the bass ~

the song is well balanced~

something quite interesting happend...guzen desu!

i was listening to the mp3 i converted for the song [sleep] at around 8 am (cloudy day)

and once the song progressed to the chorus part ..." SAYONARA ni yubi ...." sunlight shone into my room ...XD

i was dazed at first ...o__________O "what just happened??"

then i went "UWaAAAAAhhh" in my heart ...lol...

such a coincidence since my mood was in a sunny warmth kinda mood ~

I LOVE SUNLIGHTTT!

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LM.C

yfdfyudfjsdhfklddsfgvl

Album's gonna be relesed the same day ....

competition between SONY and Pony Canyon is tight ne !

LM.C is trying ti make it big !

for the international tour ...they are going all round Europe , USA and also ASIA...this time they included THAILAND!!!...why not here!!

But the announcement that the album will be released on the 15th of march in Malaysia make me feel not forgotten ^^

I listened to the TRAILER~..omggg!!..i can tell that it is another one of those motivating songs!

and it has that 88 tune to it ...but different in a way

Electro rock ~

gotta love it ~

Maya is getting better at writing meaningful songs ~

like YUI but in a more general aspect that could touch people's hearts all over the world..they might look different and kinda wired with those hair and makeup, but the song is all that matters ~

Most importantly...no "fanservice" whatsoever on stage....Aiji used to do it when he was in Perriot ...and MAya when he was performing with Miyavi ~..lol

I guess the two have some kinda fanservice phobia eh ~

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I know i may sound all "Japanese minded" ...i'm not CRAZY about them ^^

just that there are not a lot of quality and meaningful English songs these days...

all are techno or R&B with fake or modified voice... and also repeated words !!!

GOSH!! be creative people!!!

what happened to lyrics that comes form the heart ??...

Seems like the songs created are all based on the money appeal ~

not really much of a gift to fans ~

i know some of you hate MJbut if you listen to some of his songs ...

they are meaningful ~ ( his personal life aside)

I may not be good at music stuff nor am i good at guitar ~

but since i learnt guitar...i take music seriously

more seriously that before ~

it annoys me when groups like W-inds turn away from their creative ways and blend into the common trends ~

New World crossed the line ~

the fake voice almost seems like all of them are lip syncing~

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ahhh....need to get back to becoming a robot ~

Back and busy ^^...disgusting pics are a no no~

AHHHH ~ finally able to co on line and bolg!

I've been really busy since the moment i stepped back!!!

"Why" , You ask??

well...it's the first time that we are not going back ( at all) to our grandparents place ~

So much preparations need to be done!

Bought some "tang long" or Chinese lanterns ...and of course! like every year, i'll be the one climbing the ladder and putting all the decorations up!

I was too exhausted to makes the seaweed crackers " seaweed Keropok"

finally found konyaku ! after searching in 3 differents supermarkets ~ yay

gonna make it later or maybe tomorrow !

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The rose that bloomed !

there were a few more pics but the lighting was't that good so my other pics were blury ~

Nice to have these blooming in conjunction with valentines day and CNY!!!

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AHHH

I have a welcome home gift from nature~

A HALOOOOOO

it's said to be a once-in-a-Life- time thingy ~ but sis saw this for the second time already!

pics??

well the halo was huge!! so i scooped down and all i got was half a circle ~

Can't go any lower to get the full circle!

really rare ...a full circle rainbow ~

my jasmine still has a long way to go but...

ORCHIDS !

i love the "Niwa " at home ~

Just bursting with nature ~

i was too busy to get pics of lanterns and all ...nyu~~

somehow ~ i'm all busy ..but kinda enjoying ..being able to do stuff with mum !

I want to forget my assignments and all for a moment...so i kept my phone silent ~

SORRYY SENPAIIIII! *cries*

i guesss that's it for today ~

About time i go do summore stuff XD

ja matta ne ~

Love you all

-Miyuki-

*exhausted but enjoying my time at home ~

edit edittt!!..i forgot that i need to complainnnn~

lol

DISCGUSTING PICSSS!

If you read my FB you must be wondering what i was talking about!!!

GOSHHH!!

i tried to click "hide " the "hide XXXXX" the person !!

but every single tome i go back the DISGUSTING pic is there

what pic??..

i saw the printed version before ...and seriouslyyy!

well i'm just gonna say what it is

it's a picture of a boob ~ with holes and worms in it ~

it is obviously photoshoped!!

the holes are neat in lines ...and somewhat disgusting in a way...no puss ~ so photoshoped !

but STILL it's disgusthingggg!!

My friend got tagged so it appears in my home page !!

so people ..if you are tagged remove it!

if you got it...don't post it or tag people..its rude and not a pleasant thing to look at !!

DANGGG!

someone please spam FB so that i don't have to see that !!!

Totally unexpected ~ scared me ~

As always ...Monday is a challenge for me ~

2 extra challenges at that ~

one expected ...the other ...unpredicted ...

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Morning was kinda warm and nice ~

like what i pictured in my previous blog ~

Took a few pictures of the sunrise some flowers and also sundown too !!

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Morning class ended early so for the firs t time in ages ...i had breakfast ~

Headed to the library to read newspapers ...and found out that there was a minor 2.6 earthquake in the Ranau area ( In Sabah)

no damage though...in fact..no one felt it and apparently some expert says that it is good for releasing some kinda pressure to prevent more sever earthquake in the future ~

wrote a letter ....to Yamazaki ~

about if's and what might happen if my life was normal ~

if all that didn't happen

but i realize that lingering in "IF's " will get me nowhere ~

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anyways ..presentation for our assignment was next...

If you know me well enough ...you'd know that i have some kind of reaction ...shivering ~

Today I tried my best to control it....

something wired happened ~

my heart was pumping really hard and loud before i was to present~

I could actually FEEL it against my ribs as it pounded...

i thought it was the air conditioning going "da dum daa dump"....in sync with the beating i felt at my ribs ~

"guzen desu" i thought ~

but after I presented ....the sound ...gone ~

i wonder if everyone feels that way when controlling their shivering ~ ...

or is there something wrong with me???

i wasn't feeling well these few days and faced insomnia ~

so...i'm not sure what was going on with my body ~

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that was expected ...some kinda nervous reaction ..( or maybe just because i'm not genki)

the unexpected one was during Sociology class ~

somehow ...between the lecture about socializing ~~

the talk about cancer came up ~

and darkness took over ~

it was worse when everyone was laughing about it ~

taking things lightly ...as if " oh ..that would NEVER happen to me..haha"

all emotions of sadness .. frustration and anger took over ~...

i tried to control it and muffled my ears with my hands ~

i could hear laughter as talks bout that topic went on ~

my chest went tight and i couldn't breathe...

my hands started to shake ~

somehow i was able to get back to normal ~ when lecture ended ~

i almost dashed out of the lecture hall ~

but i guess I could control the mixed emotions boiling up inside ~

I don't want to make myself any more "wired" like i already am ~

A word of advice ~ ...

never take sickness as a joke

it could happen to you and me ...

Life and Death is no joke ~

SUFFERINGS

no joke either ~

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Anyways .....

*gosh i can't breathe *

thanks to all that finally completed your part in the proposal ....

all efforts are well appreciated ~

^^ thanks member tachi ~

sorry for my blur-ness ....

^^

but all things are settled ~ bascally ~

leave the rest to me !!

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i need to get the washing done and take a warm bath ~

i'm too tired to post up any of the wonderful pics i got today ...so maybe another time ??

or maybe later at mid -night when i have settled some final touches for another assignment due 11th ~

^^

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gomen for the emo talk * esp to Senpai & Mao *

i need to rant out so that i can stay strong ....

and keep my stature in check ~

thanks for reading ...means a lot to me ~

as always ...

Love you all

XOXO

-miyuki-

the challenge of facing reality gets tougher ~

Dramatic mood ~

The weekend is finally over ~

And CNY is just around the corer ...

but i am not in the mood~

The pressure as a leader is getting on me ~

Plus ...assignments and mid- terms are after CNY !

which means that the 1 week of so-called celebration will be a study week for me ~

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I just hope going back early isn't a mistake . i mean, may people will be going back early..and if i don't i might get depressed ~

haih..i just want time to either stop ..or jump to Wednesday ~

I can be home and use the fridge as i please ...not so much of the TV ...but i could at least make konyaku and jelly ~

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I am now kinda in a "cold" state ~

someone should snap me out of this...

AKI tried to help ...his efforts were in vain ~

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the hidden sorrow ...unseen ~

.

The sun was shining through the curtains and i thought it might create a nice photo effect~

and yeah~..the light coming through the gap between the fingerboard and me is nice ne~ ^^

I wished time would just stop there....

Seems like i was captured in a fantasy world that doesn't exist ...

Seems~

I was myself ...for most of Friday and Saturday ~

Spent a lot of time with AKI ....

but happiness will always and eventually fade away in the demanding world ~

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The muffled sound of Senpai's voice calling my name gradually pulls me out of my dreams and into reality ~

I realised that i have my favorite blanket over my head to block the morning sun ~

She "peels" the blanket off my hands as she glared at me - eyes wide open ...

I squinted my eyes and i could feel the warm rays caressing my cheeks ~

as soon as my eyes adjusted to the light ..i could see her dimples forming as she smiled ~

i got up and got myself ready for breakfast~

it was an off- day

but i had my book of memories on the coffee table ~...and of course AKI was there ....

i flipped the pages ~

and found a nice song that fits my mood that morning ~

I strum a few chords and hummed a melody ~

not happy not sad....something nostalgic ..

Every time i see the sunrise - and the sky dyed in the reddish- orange rays ....i can feel my soul .

somehow ~

How nice would it be if time would stop there and then ~

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The reality that would never be ~

for now ...sorrow will not leave my side ~

burden and stressful situations surrounds me and my life ~

Anytime ...a call or a message would make me sad, frustrated , worried or mad ~

Glittering memories are always the most dazzling painful ones ....because they fade away~

The time i met Aki was the best 6 months of my life ~...i wish i could go back there ~

but i always ask for impossible things ne ~

Life may be tough and saddening~...

all i could do is cling on to the last remaining faith and hope that i have ~~

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its hard i know ~

to keep your own principles...but stay strong my friends ~

KINZOKU no chikara ga aru ~

ganbate kudasai ~

-miyuki-

A little talkative ...and Guitar mood ~

lol....first i would like to apologize to all my friends on MSN ...lol

I have been a little talkative lately for some odd reason ~

Maybe it's too much pressure from all over ~

plus my busy life...

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Haven't done anything this two days...

i'm sooo sorry member-tachi~

not feeling well so ...i tend to get a little lazy ...

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Okey ...^^

Official announcement of my guitars !!!

did you do the quiz...??

if you did then you will know that i have 2 guitar ( in use) and my first lousy guitar collecting dust ~

i hereby present to you AKI & MAO...

(Mao is a real person btw ...XD...someone i really like ...haha)

AKI = D25BK AKA : my beloved black acoustic guitar !!

MAO= D25NT AKA: the natural tone ..the one that sounds beautiful~

( and also harder to strum ^^)

hai hai... had this chocolate moose cake ...was in a sudden "dairy" mood

you girls pretty much know why XD

nice ~ better than the expensive ones ~

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Pictures!!

I was on my way home in a bus in a C*appy mood when i saw the sun set !!

somehow a nostalgic feeling came ~

^^

so i took pictures of the warm sun ~

can't get a good angle or good pic since it was all behind a dirty window ...

but worth sharing ^^

The reason why i can't loose the extra baggage XD..ohh they introduced small bubbles /pearls

;(

i prefer the big ones ~

Nice nostalgic feeling~

the 6pm traffic...dirty window!!

DUN and a nice tree ...^^

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If you are not a guitar person you can skip this XDXD:

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I've been doing some ( A LOT) of guitar practice lately ~

YUI's songs mostly ...ehhh... entirely actually... ( stop rhyming girl !)

YUI's muffler was kinda easy to do ~...as always ...i have problems with the bridge part

I wanted to play one soing since forever!! and that is YUI's life ~

Now this is the big challenge ~

If i can play this song..i think the electric guitar won't be much of a problem for me ~

the pre-chorus and the strumming patterns are hard...i can do it..but then making it sound smooth and effortless is hard ~

need to get my brain and muscles in sync ~ the song is 97 % bar chords !!!

some i've never done before!!

been looking for chords that sounded nice ~ and also simmilar to the original song and found tabs!!

the tabs are easy to understand ...( easier that chords ^^::) but it is actually chords made into tabs ~

anyways.. i think i need a month and a lot of free time (which i don't) to master this song ~

wish me luckkkk!

GYYAAAA

i think AKI is eating up my plectrums when i am asleep or something!! i only have 1 ashton pick leftttt! i need to get more !!! and the only music store around is in the cityyy !!

can anyone accompany me there tomorrow?? T^T

i want to stop by there also to ask if they could make me a gulitar pick necklace!!

or just get the metal one and head to the silver shop to get it engraved and make it into a guitar pick !

oh well

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sorry for the long post ~

been enjoying my days with Aki ( the person) and AKI ..my D25BK XD

Thanks senpai ~

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love you all as always ....^^

XOXO

-Miyuki-

Tough day ~ ...and no peace and quiet~

I'm getting busier by the day ~

Everything seems to be fine so far~

But then many other things start pouring in ~

I'm so pressured now ~

Not mainly because of assignments , but because of sooo many things happening out and about~

The way people are talking to me ~

The way the world revolves ~

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First my PC and pendrive is infected with some recycler virus ~

i know its not from my pc ~

coz my pc is working fine~

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Then there is the home thingy going on~

then there is the ..." are you gonna do the shukudai " look on some people's faces after the bad news ~

then there is that text /sms

then the tsumetai face flashed at me by that ubberly rude person ~

i hate it ...

i'm angry ...i'm sad

frustrated ~

and then

about 5 minutes ago... asking me if i took any keys from the keybox

SERIOUSLYYYY...i never touched the keys hung inside !!

DON"T POINT FINGERS DAMN IT!!

keep your things properly...if you loose it just point the finger at yourself....

I'm already pissed off enough ...and i come back as a suspect !!!

i feel like my heart is ripped out and stomped on ....

then i come back for people to pour and rub salt in the already wounded heart ~

*takes deep breath*

HIAAAAhhh~

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" every man has hidden sorrows that the world knows not of ...often , we judge them as cold when all along they are sad "

Some words i read ...that i would like to share ....

coz it reflects me and my life as a whole ~

is it the same for you??

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all in all ..i was about to break down when some encouragement came to the rescue !!

Mum , senpai and Mao were there supporting me ~ and reminding me to stay strong ~

Love you Mum...love you senpai...*hugs* you too Mao-san

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i decided that i need a rest tonight ~

I'm too tired to think bout assignments now...

maybe i'll strum for Mao-san ...^^

My guitar always makes me feel better ~

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Now for news!!

Maya and Aiji are in a plane to the big apple ~ NYC

yes to get the album done with the "best skills available" ~

let's pray that they arrive there safely ~ ^/\^

must be a loooong trip ~

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i guess that's it for now...might update with some pics later ...or tomorrow~

Mao is already whining ...he wants to hear Acoustic-san ^^

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Ja~

Matta ne ~

p/s: sorry for causing you all so much trouble ... XOXO

Love you all ~

-Miyuki-

Happy 1st February everyone !!

the date might be wrong ^^"" on the post ...

But it's already February the 1st...meaning 13 days more to CNY !! and only 9 more days before i head home ~

i'm facing a little bit of insomnia ...coz of the mood swings i had today ~

You know ..Girl's thing ~ haha

i promise this will be short ~

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Gyaa ~ say lots of cute decorations for CNY by Otata ~

LOVE ~~~~

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The more Mao stays here the more i'm falling ~

(SENpAI !! arigatouuu)

XD

Senpai said that Mao likes it here ^^

so he'll be staying for a while ~

Nice to have some company when one is lonely ~

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tomorrow will be a busy monday ~

Can't head home for a quick break coz i have responsibilities as a leader ~

I just hope my time is appreciated ~

Mao can't tag along because he will be busy with the upcoming events ~( like always )^^

* is it me or am i going crazy??*

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Anyways...i got to try to sleep !! seriously..before i die of sleepy-ness tomorrow morning ...all through night!!

Thanks for all the support and encouragement ...

i hope that i could endure tomorrow's torment waiting for me ...like a wolf ready to hunt down and kill it's prey ~

* i sound really dramatic*

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Love you Mao ~

And senpai too ~

love all of you who are there behind me ^^

thanks for all the support ya'll !

love you all to pieces -3-...

XOXO

-Miyuki-

AN UPDATE!! Finally!!

First the extremly good news...

Omedetou !!! I'm a mother!...well i didn't give birth ..lol...but i have an " adopted son"

Very common for chinese people to take up an adopted son ( a friends new born ..ect ect)

29th january 2010!!

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Okeis...there were a few people that tend to, and actually like to push my buttons !!

And i was in a little bad mood yesterday and also today...

I regret sacrifising my pendrive to the computer lab ~

I had to transfer files into another member's pendrive and i got my lappy infected with the autorun virus !

It only gets sent to the vault ~

oh well

and there was all that mess bout my pendrive ~

lost pendrive ...full of virus~ ect ect

some people are born to piss you off ~

and worse ..people with no sense of responsibility ~

And for that i pushed this weeks tutorial ( on purpose ) to my group members...

I know it sounds evil~

but then i did the previous 2 ..flat out ~

especially the second one ~

Got another "button-pushing" text ~

i'm not a 2 year old okey... like i don't know that my pendrive wasn't even lost the first place ~

I can see through a lie ~ and i can see through one's soul ~

so to speak..haha ...freak you out didn't i ...gomenneh ~ ^/\^

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OKEYYY!! been long since i posted any good pics !

Here is the one i promised in my previous post

the view of Mt Kinabalu !! from the library~

No clear image ( since the place is more that 2 hours away)

but at least i got a shot!!







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Okies ~ that was wenesday and thursday's story...

I had class last friday ~

replacement or something~

Came back craving for rice , so i decided to stop by the stores...

all sold out~

Naturally ~

hate it here because it gets dark 1/2 an hour early compared to my hometown ~

6.15 and the street lights are already on ~

so i went to MULTIBAKE ..the worse bakery in KK!!

why you ask !!

i would make a complain because its our right as a consumer !! but then where to?

ah ~

Just found a place to complain~

But then its a 2.00 thing ~

I'll give it a second chance ~

but people !! dont buy the egg sandwich or any other product there ~

They cheat consumers ~

see for yourself!!

so called established!!

i could make better ones at much cheaper cost and not cheat the customers!!!

Comment and tell me what you think ~

I might buy another time and open it on the coffee table there ( since it's a cafe-like bakery)

if it so happens to be like that again i'll complain to the company there ~

if the response is bad ..well ..i can't take it anymore ....as an economy student ~

i've studied enough to know my rights as a consumer ~

Click HERE if you are a Malaysian and want to complain about a bad product !!

its nothing to be shy about since its our rights !!!

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okies ~ this is one of my many sketches ~

i'm not so good at it so haha~

it reads KINZOKU ~

still a secret ( the meaning behind KZK)~

haha..yeah

if you are wondering what it means ...its something between me , my important person , and also Mao-san ( he might know bout this ^^)..and of course my boyfriend ~ the whole thing wouldn't be complete w/o "him" haha~

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ended up with a crappy afternoon ne ~

yeah ~

people are pushing my buttons all over the place ~

but then i have to be grateful that things are starting to ease out ~

still in my shell ~ closed up ~

if only someone would hold my hand ~

and make me open up ^^

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Still trying to stay happy on a crappy weekend ~

-Miyuki-

love you all to pieces ..(* sings w-inds pieces*.."um yeah positively get pieces" ..*giggles*)

Today was okey i guess ~

Like yesterday i expected the worse ~

And sure enough , on the way to the bus stop at 7.30 am  i got a message saying that 7 of them can't make it, the other person is definitely not coming because of some kinda "busy ". well duh ~ so was I !

They end up coming since i mentioned that it will only be for 10 minutes or so ~

Hmmm~ my first shot of Mt Kinabalu on a clear day. it would be much clearer from College E...

you don't expect me to go all the way there just to get a clear shot do you??..only if Tidus is here ~ haha


MPP or MMP or waht ever that call it...

it was election day in uny for the MPP ~..yeah MPP haha student representative ~

it was kinda amusing ...owh ..we voted using the computer~
the dunny part : 8 representative = vote for 7

for my faculty ( or referred to "school" in UMS ) we have 3 representative and you have to vote for 2~

oh well...it was nice to stop by DC once in a while ~

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Japanese class was up next ~

As usual it was exhausting ~

Naomi sensei's class was much more relaxing with two 10 minute break between the 2.30 hours of class ~

Ike sensei only gives 5 minute break for the whole 2.35 hours ~ ( 5 minutes for the break)

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Had Uncle BOb's chicken rice ~

I haven't taken rice since monday ~

which is really bad ~

it's tasty but then i fely uncomfortable after that meal ~

will hence stick to the regular stuff...

Maybe because my stomach can't take in these stuff anymore ( haven't taken fried stuff in a while )

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was lazy to head back to this depressing room so i stayed in the library...

wanted to look for some info for pedagogy through the lab ~ the line is too slow so i gave up ~

i went upstairs intending to read newspaper ~

But all taken ~

"oh well might as well head to the cubical room"

=_='''....all full ~

so i went to my usual table where not many people can see what you are doing ^^

finish my lesson 10 shukudai

I WAS SOOOO D*MN LUCKY!!

the moment i wen't out ~ the bus came!!! bwahahahaha

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I just turned on POL album by w-inds ~ back in the early days ...2003 to be exact !!!

OMG!! i forgot how good the sounded ~

Now they are just some plastic band ( americanized ) ...which makes them not all that special anymore ~

the last song i liked was Can't get back ..i think ~ that was just "like" ...

i remember being really crazy bout them !!!

haha...but if i see keita walking around i don't thin i'd spaz ...( he is a little too over himself)

Ryohei maybe ~ he's still that person passionate on dance ~

Not so sure bout Ryu ichi though ~

I could still mouth the rap for Long Road !!! that was how much i LIKED them

been a while since i listened to a boy band group w/o eyeliner !!

I'm still wondering what role does Ryohei and Ryuichi play ~  

Background vocals and singing ~  no wonder Keita is so in love with himself ~

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Mao came back with a new look today ~ OMG!!!

I want his hair !! XD

i'm kinda lazy to post the pic so maybe when i'm a little less exhausted i'll post it up ne ~

Ja matta

_miyuki_

Sacrifices ! will try my best ! even if it gets hard

ARGH! forgot to buy medication for my emo-ness sickness XD

Chocolate ~

oh well ...means i can keep the weight off ~

Still trying to loose the extra baggage ...!!

so far so good ~

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haha

I am the leader for quite a big project consisting of 10 group members !!

yes ! being the leader kinda sucks because all are depending on you~

Plus there are those blood sucking free loaders !!

I'm hoping that there are none for this semester !

I wanna score this subject!

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Some of you might know that its hard to have all 9 people in the same place in the same time for a meeting right?

Well i understand that too!

As a leader i have to put myself in one's shoes ~

so i scheduled a 2 time meeting both morning ~

I have to sacrifice my sleep ~

and also the time i have to do all my assignments !

the thing that ticks me off is ...i stay further than anyone from uny and have 10 times more difficulty of obtaining a bus ride !

i was there at 8.30 sharp ~

No one showed up till 10.30 ~

yes one single ( hopefully) reliable preson ~

One excuse was out of this world!!

" i have class at 11 am"

the meeting was 8.30!!

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Oh well

i then took some draft from a really good friend ..!

she went all the way to give what i needed ....she said she had something to edit!

i went for branch ~ a waffel and my fav drink Milky -tea ~

then i was lucky enough to catch the bus to go for a little outing ~

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Bought this outfit i really like ~ a little pricy but i really really like it!

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Bad news is..i saw an outfit i like even more for half the price !!

not thick ~ = comfy

exactly like what mao wanted me to wear !!!

but there were stains on it so BOOO~

owh~ i'm not sure why...but many people stared at me for some reason !! is there someting wrong?? i'm worried ~

in the mall and also in uny!!

i was just wearing office like formal...since its a lame formal day ~

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here's the pic ~

there is a ribbon tied at the back ~ and it is 10 X nicer if i tie up my hair ~

the top is kinda plain so i kinda add the scarf touch to it ^^

dou desuka??

A touch of lollita ~ and it goes with the cheap scarf i bought from a kiosk ~

i especially love the cuff at the end of the sleeve!!

sorry for the LQ~

the lighting in my room is bad !

they have lolita cosplay outfits there ~ ready made ~ they sell all the lolita stuff ~

And seriously i dont really like it when people say that it is a punk shop because its not !!

The shop name is street ~

and if you are a VK fan and have enough money in your pocket this is the place to be!!!

One lolita outfit is RM 400!!!

crazy right !! ..tailor made would be much much cheaper !

Love the design on the plastic bag too ^^

Would like to take this design if i ever have enough money to get an ESP custom made guitar ^^

But then what will i name it ?? lol

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owh ...my new look ~

not really new since no one in uny noticed it ~

just got my bangs to the side = easier to maintain ..owh and since the treatment is a really good one ~ my hair is shining and super straight !! i washed it the very next day so that it wont be so straight!! nyu~

and yes i have a tired look ^^""

it was a bad day ~

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i have a sudden craving for milk the whole time ~

i like dairy products ~

But they are super fattening !!

but who cares ^^

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Ahh`

Long post again ne ~

Gomen ~

i'll stop here ^^

Hope tomorrow goes well ne ~

not looking foward to it but ~ maa iii kaaa~

have to start drafting out everything for my members ~

so wish me the best of luck !!!

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Love

-miyuki-

(still building that wall )

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p/s : Mao -san is currently influencing my style ~

A simple scarf could make a plain outfit gorgeous!!

this isn't far away from my own style~ since i like shirts halfway below my waistline before the knees~ hide loads of extra baggage XDXD

Emo sickness ~ in the air~ lets build back that wall !

The pain i'm feeling now is not the pain that everyone could understand ~

And also not something that i could explain ~

Its not assignment pressure that is making me all emotional and everything~

Yeah ~ its the surroundings ..."that" in particular~

I'm pressured and worried ~

Plus i got a few bad news ~

Things that i was looking forward to , now crushed into pieces ~

i bet everyone has their hard times ~ and then there is that particular date to look forward to ~

Not for me ~

everywhere i go anytime , i can't have a break!

So i have been saying that i want to run !!! or just fade away~

Because there is no salvation !!

I want to turn back time ~ to the place and time where i am most happy ~

Now my only salvation is my guitar ~

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I'm not alone on this track ~

I know that some people are also suffering like i am ~

Actually a promise was made ~

That we should stay strong together~

Dakara~

to whom it may concern ~

Who might be reading this pitiful blog ~

Lets try our best ( no matter how hard it is) to stay strong and positive !

it might really hurt the heart at times , but then it is another pain we face ...

Yes ! we are falling and skinning our knees !

When we fall...we don't fall gracefully ~

Yet we still have to pull ourselves up!

Then we can stand up to be much stronger than before~

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My heart is still hurting and nothing could soothe the pain ~

yet !! i still have to put the bits and pieces back together ~

my fort fell ~

But i have to gather up my strength to build a stronger wall ~

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-Miyuki-

with the scraped knee ~

My heart is sick ~

lol~

No ...i didn't break up with my boyfriend ~ i don't have one either ...

And i couldn't be bothered to have one~

Just that it is tiering to stay strong ~

Everything wrong just accumulates !

You think you could stay strong the whole day ...but there is just that tiny thing that turns all that pressure you hide behind the smile into a flare of rage ~

Imagine having a big boulder on your shoulder ...no one can help you ! in fact they load more on you ~

Then your knees hurt from carrying all that heavy stuff ~

You wish someone would notice the pain in your eyes ~

you go back treated like a low peasant~ a low-life , a nobody ~ like a rag ~nothing more ~ everything less ~

All that and you still want to stay strong~

But then weakness comes staring you straight in the eye ~

Knocking on your door~...

You start to weaken ~

Then when you do ... you get your heart ripped out and stomped on ~

Yes ... it hurts ~

This world is cruel ~

I've lost almost every drop of happiness i have ~

Shed almost every tear ~

Bleed every drop of blood ~

And yet i still have more to lose ~

I wish i could just fade away into nothingness ~

The me you see now is empty ~

A shell wasting away ~

really hurts ~

and yet every bit of happiness is stolen from you ~

- The weakened miyuki-