Today was okey i guess ~

Like yesterday i expected the worse ~

And sure enough , on the way to the bus stop at 7.30 am  i got a message saying that 7 of them can't make it, the other person is definitely not coming because of some kinda "busy ". well duh ~ so was I !

They end up coming since i mentioned that it will only be for 10 minutes or so ~

Hmmm~ my first shot of Mt Kinabalu on a clear day. it would be much clearer from College E...

you don't expect me to go all the way there just to get a clear shot do you??..only if Tidus is here ~ haha


MPP or MMP or waht ever that call it...

it was election day in uny for the MPP ~..yeah MPP haha student representative ~

it was kinda amusing ...owh ..we voted using the computer~
the dunny part : 8 representative = vote for 7

for my faculty ( or referred to "school" in UMS ) we have 3 representative and you have to vote for 2~

oh well...it was nice to stop by DC once in a while ~

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Japanese class was up next ~

As usual it was exhausting ~

Naomi sensei's class was much more relaxing with two 10 minute break between the 2.30 hours of class ~

Ike sensei only gives 5 minute break for the whole 2.35 hours ~ ( 5 minutes for the break)

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Had Uncle BOb's chicken rice ~

I haven't taken rice since monday ~

which is really bad ~

it's tasty but then i fely uncomfortable after that meal ~

will hence stick to the regular stuff...

Maybe because my stomach can't take in these stuff anymore ( haven't taken fried stuff in a while )

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was lazy to head back to this depressing room so i stayed in the library...

wanted to look for some info for pedagogy through the lab ~ the line is too slow so i gave up ~

i went upstairs intending to read newspaper ~

But all taken ~

"oh well might as well head to the cubical room"

=_='''....all full ~

so i went to my usual table where not many people can see what you are doing ^^

finish my lesson 10 shukudai

I WAS SOOOO D*MN LUCKY!!

the moment i wen't out ~ the bus came!!! bwahahahaha

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I just turned on POL album by w-inds ~ back in the early days ...2003 to be exact !!!

OMG!! i forgot how good the sounded ~

Now they are just some plastic band ( americanized ) ...which makes them not all that special anymore ~

the last song i liked was Can't get back ..i think ~ that was just "like" ...

i remember being really crazy bout them !!!

haha...but if i see keita walking around i don't thin i'd spaz ...( he is a little too over himself)

Ryohei maybe ~ he's still that person passionate on dance ~

Not so sure bout Ryu ichi though ~

I could still mouth the rap for Long Road !!! that was how much i LIKED them

been a while since i listened to a boy band group w/o eyeliner !!

I'm still wondering what role does Ryohei and Ryuichi play ~  

Background vocals and singing ~  no wonder Keita is so in love with himself ~

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Mao came back with a new look today ~ OMG!!!

I want his hair !! XD

i'm kinda lazy to post the pic so maybe when i'm a little less exhausted i'll post it up ne ~

Ja matta

_miyuki_

Sacrifices ! will try my best ! even if it gets hard

ARGH! forgot to buy medication for my emo-ness sickness XD

Chocolate ~

oh well ...means i can keep the weight off ~

Still trying to loose the extra baggage ...!!

so far so good ~

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haha

I am the leader for quite a big project consisting of 10 group members !!

yes ! being the leader kinda sucks because all are depending on you~

Plus there are those blood sucking free loaders !!

I'm hoping that there are none for this semester !

I wanna score this subject!

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Some of you might know that its hard to have all 9 people in the same place in the same time for a meeting right?

Well i understand that too!

As a leader i have to put myself in one's shoes ~

so i scheduled a 2 time meeting both morning ~

I have to sacrifice my sleep ~

and also the time i have to do all my assignments !

the thing that ticks me off is ...i stay further than anyone from uny and have 10 times more difficulty of obtaining a bus ride !

i was there at 8.30 sharp ~

No one showed up till 10.30 ~

yes one single ( hopefully) reliable preson ~

One excuse was out of this world!!

" i have class at 11 am"

the meeting was 8.30!!

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Oh well

i then took some draft from a really good friend ..!

she went all the way to give what i needed ....she said she had something to edit!

i went for branch ~ a waffel and my fav drink Milky -tea ~

then i was lucky enough to catch the bus to go for a little outing ~

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Bought this outfit i really like ~ a little pricy but i really really like it!

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Bad news is..i saw an outfit i like even more for half the price !!

not thick ~ = comfy

exactly like what mao wanted me to wear !!!

but there were stains on it so BOOO~

owh~ i'm not sure why...but many people stared at me for some reason !! is there someting wrong?? i'm worried ~

in the mall and also in uny!!

i was just wearing office like formal...since its a lame formal day ~

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here's the pic ~

there is a ribbon tied at the back ~ and it is 10 X nicer if i tie up my hair ~

the top is kinda plain so i kinda add the scarf touch to it ^^

dou desuka??

A touch of lollita ~ and it goes with the cheap scarf i bought from a kiosk ~

i especially love the cuff at the end of the sleeve!!

sorry for the LQ~

the lighting in my room is bad !

they have lolita cosplay outfits there ~ ready made ~ they sell all the lolita stuff ~

And seriously i dont really like it when people say that it is a punk shop because its not !!

The shop name is street ~

and if you are a VK fan and have enough money in your pocket this is the place to be!!!

One lolita outfit is RM 400!!!

crazy right !! ..tailor made would be much much cheaper !

Love the design on the plastic bag too ^^

Would like to take this design if i ever have enough money to get an ESP custom made guitar ^^

But then what will i name it ?? lol

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owh ...my new look ~

not really new since no one in uny noticed it ~

just got my bangs to the side = easier to maintain ..owh and since the treatment is a really good one ~ my hair is shining and super straight !! i washed it the very next day so that it wont be so straight!! nyu~

and yes i have a tired look ^^""

it was a bad day ~

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i have a sudden craving for milk the whole time ~

i like dairy products ~

But they are super fattening !!

but who cares ^^

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Ahh`

Long post again ne ~

Gomen ~

i'll stop here ^^

Hope tomorrow goes well ne ~

not looking foward to it but ~ maa iii kaaa~

have to start drafting out everything for my members ~

so wish me the best of luck !!!

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Love

-miyuki-

(still building that wall )

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p/s : Mao -san is currently influencing my style ~

A simple scarf could make a plain outfit gorgeous!!

this isn't far away from my own style~ since i like shirts halfway below my waistline before the knees~ hide loads of extra baggage XDXD

Emo sickness ~ in the air~ lets build back that wall !

The pain i'm feeling now is not the pain that everyone could understand ~

And also not something that i could explain ~

Its not assignment pressure that is making me all emotional and everything~

Yeah ~ its the surroundings ..."that" in particular~

I'm pressured and worried ~

Plus i got a few bad news ~

Things that i was looking forward to , now crushed into pieces ~

i bet everyone has their hard times ~ and then there is that particular date to look forward to ~

Not for me ~

everywhere i go anytime , i can't have a break!

So i have been saying that i want to run !!! or just fade away~

Because there is no salvation !!

I want to turn back time ~ to the place and time where i am most happy ~

Now my only salvation is my guitar ~

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I'm not alone on this track ~

I know that some people are also suffering like i am ~

Actually a promise was made ~

That we should stay strong together~

Dakara~

to whom it may concern ~

Who might be reading this pitiful blog ~

Lets try our best ( no matter how hard it is) to stay strong and positive !

it might really hurt the heart at times , but then it is another pain we face ...

Yes ! we are falling and skinning our knees !

When we fall...we don't fall gracefully ~

Yet we still have to pull ourselves up!

Then we can stand up to be much stronger than before~

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My heart is still hurting and nothing could soothe the pain ~

yet !! i still have to put the bits and pieces back together ~

my fort fell ~

But i have to gather up my strength to build a stronger wall ~

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-Miyuki-

with the scraped knee ~

My heart is sick ~

lol~

No ...i didn't break up with my boyfriend ~ i don't have one either ...

And i couldn't be bothered to have one~

Just that it is tiering to stay strong ~

Everything wrong just accumulates !

You think you could stay strong the whole day ...but there is just that tiny thing that turns all that pressure you hide behind the smile into a flare of rage ~

Imagine having a big boulder on your shoulder ...no one can help you ! in fact they load more on you ~

Then your knees hurt from carrying all that heavy stuff ~

You wish someone would notice the pain in your eyes ~

you go back treated like a low peasant~ a low-life , a nobody ~ like a rag ~nothing more ~ everything less ~

All that and you still want to stay strong~

But then weakness comes staring you straight in the eye ~

Knocking on your door~...

You start to weaken ~

Then when you do ... you get your heart ripped out and stomped on ~

Yes ... it hurts ~

This world is cruel ~

I've lost almost every drop of happiness i have ~

Shed almost every tear ~

Bleed every drop of blood ~

And yet i still have more to lose ~

I wish i could just fade away into nothingness ~

The me you see now is empty ~

A shell wasting away ~

really hurts ~

and yet every bit of happiness is stolen from you ~

- The weakened miyuki-