Thursday, February 11, 2010

Back and busy ^^...disgusting pics are a no no~

AHHHH ~ finally able to co on line and bolg!

I've been really busy since the moment i stepped back!!!

"Why" , You ask??

well...it's the first time that we are not going back ( at all) to our grandparents place ~

So much preparations need to be done!

Bought some "tang long" or Chinese lanterns ...and of course! like every year, i'll be the one climbing the ladder and putting all the decorations up!

I was too exhausted to makes the seaweed crackers " seaweed Keropok"

finally found konyaku ! after searching in 3 differents supermarkets ~ yay

gonna make it later or maybe tomorrow !



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The rose that bloomed !

there were a few more pics but the lighting was't that good so my other pics were blury ~

Nice to have these blooming in conjunction with valentines day and CNY!!!
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AHHH

I have a welcome home gift from nature~

A HALOOOOOO

it's said to be a once-in-a-Life- time thingy ~ but sis saw this for the second time already!

pics??

well the halo was huge!! so i scooped down and all i got was half a circle ~

Can't go any lower to get the full circle!

really rare ...a full circle rainbow ~




my jasmine still has a long way to go but...


ORCHIDS !

i love the "Niwa " at home ~

Just bursting with nature ~

i was too busy to get pics of lanterns and all ...nyu~~

somehow ~ i'm all busy ..but kinda enjoying ..being able to do stuff with mum !

I want to forget my assignments and all for a moment...so i kept my phone silent ~

SORRYY SENPAIIIII! *cries*

i guesss that's it for today ~

About time i go do summore stuff XD

ja matta ne ~

Love you all

-Miyuki-

*exhausted but enjoying my time at home ~


edit edittt!!..i forgot that i need to complainnnn~

lol

DISCGUSTING PICSSS!

If you read my FB you must be wondering what i was talking about!!!

GOSHHH!!
i tried to click "hide " the "hide XXXXX" the person !!

but every single tome i go back the DISGUSTING pic is there

what pic??..

i saw the printed version before ...and seriouslyyy!

well i'm just gonna say what it is

it's a picture of a boob ~ with holes and worms in it ~

it is obviously photoshoped!!

the holes are neat in lines ...and somewhat disgusting in a way...no puss ~ so photoshoped !

but STILL it's disgusthingggg!!

My friend got tagged so it appears in my home page !!

so people ..if you are tagged remove it!

if you got it...don't post it or tag people..its rude and not a pleasant thing to look at !!

DANGGG!

someone please spam FB so that i don't have to see that !!!


Monday, February 8, 2010

Totally unexpected ~ scared me ~

As always ...Monday is a challenge for me ~

2 extra challenges at that ~

one expected ...the other ...unpredicted ...

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Morning was kinda warm and nice ~

like what i pictured in my previous blog ~

Took a few pictures of the sunrise some flowers and also sundown too !!
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Morning class ended early so for the firs t time in ages ...i had breakfast ~

Headed to the library to read newspapers ...and found out that there was a minor 2.6 earthquake in the Ranau area ( In Sabah)

no damage though...in fact..no one felt it and apparently some expert says that it is good for releasing some kinda pressure to prevent more sever earthquake in the future ~

wrote a letter ....to Yamazaki ~

about if's and what might happen if my life was normal ~

if all that didn't happen

but i realize that lingering in "IF's " will get me nowhere ~

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anyways ..presentation for our assignment was next...

If you know me well enough ...you'd know that i have some kind of reaction ...shivering ~

Today I tried my best to control it....

something wired happened ~

my heart was pumping really hard and loud before i was to present~

I could actually FEEL it against my ribs as it pounded...

i thought it was the air conditioning going "da dum daa dump"....in sync with the beating i felt at my ribs ~

"guzen desu" i thought ~

but after I presented ....the sound ...gone ~

i wonder if everyone feels that way when controlling their shivering ~ ...

or is there something wrong with me???

i wasn't feeling well these few days and faced insomnia ~

so...i'm not sure what was going on with my body ~

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that was expected ...some kinda nervous reaction ..( or maybe just because i'm not genki)

the unexpected one was during Sociology class ~

somehow ...between the lecture about socializing ~~

the talk about cancer came up ~

and darkness took over ~

it was worse when everyone was laughing about it ~

taking things lightly ...as if " oh ..that would NEVER happen to me..haha"

all emotions of sadness .. frustration and anger took over ~...

i tried to control it and muffled my ears with my hands ~

i could hear laughter as talks bout that topic went on ~

my chest went tight and i couldn't breathe...

my hands started to shake ~

somehow i was able to get back to normal ~ when lecture ended ~

i almost dashed out of the lecture hall ~

but i guess I could control the mixed emotions boiling up inside ~

I don't want to make myself any more "wired" like i already am ~

A word of advice ~ ...

never take sickness as a joke

it could happen to you and me ...

Life and Death is no joke ~

SUFFERINGS

no joke either ~

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Anyways .....

*gosh i can't breathe *

thanks to all that finally completed your part in the proposal ....

all efforts are well appreciated ~

^^ thanks member tachi ~

sorry for my blur-ness ....

^^

but all things are settled ~ bascally ~

leave the rest to me !!

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i need to get the washing done and take a warm bath ~

i'm too tired to post up any of the wonderful pics i got today ...so maybe another time ??

or maybe later at mid -night when i have settled some final touches for another assignment due 11th ~

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gomen for the emo talk * esp to Senpai & Mao *

i need to rant out so that i can stay strong ....

and keep my stature in check ~

thanks for reading ...means a lot to me ~

as always ...

Love you all

XOXO

-miyuki-

the challenge of facing reality gets tougher ~

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Dramatic mood ~

The weekend is finally over ~

And CNY is just around the corer ...

but i am not in the mood~

The pressure as a leader is getting on me ~

Plus ...assignments and mid- terms are after CNY !

which means that the 1 week of so-called celebration will be a study week for me ~

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I just hope going back early isn't a mistake . i mean, may people will be going back early..and if i don't i might get depressed ~

haih..i just want time to either stop ..or jump to Wednesday ~

I can be home and use the fridge as i please ...not so much of the TV ...but i could at least make konyaku and jelly ~
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I am now kinda in a "cold" state ~

someone should snap me out of this...

AKI tried to help ...his efforts were in vain ~

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the hidden sorrow ...unseen ~

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The sun was shining through the curtains and i thought it might create a nice photo effect~

and yeah~..the light coming through the gap between the fingerboard and me is nice ne~ ^^

I wished time would just stop there....

Seems like i was captured in a fantasy world that doesn't exist ...

Seems~

I was myself ...for most of Friday and Saturday ~


Spent a lot of time with AKI ....

but happiness will always and eventually fade away in the demanding world ~

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The muffled sound of Senpai's voice calling my name gradually pulls me out of my dreams and into reality ~

I realised that i have my favorite blanket over my head to block the morning sun ~

She "peels" the blanket off my hands as she glared at me - eyes wide open ...

I squinted my eyes and i could feel the warm rays caressing my cheeks ~

as soon as my eyes adjusted to the light ..i could see her dimples forming as she smiled ~

i got up and got myself ready for breakfast~

it was an off- day

but i had my book of memories on the coffee table ~...and of course AKI was there ....

i flipped the pages ~

and found a nice song that fits my mood that morning ~

I strum a few chords and hummed a melody ~

not happy not sad....something nostalgic ..
Every time i see the sunrise - and the sky dyed in the reddish- orange rays ....i can feel my soul .

somehow ~

How nice would it be if time would stop there and then ~
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The reality that would never be ~

for now ...sorrow will not leave my side ~

burden and stressful situations surrounds me and my life ~

Anytime ...a call or a message would make me sad, frustrated , worried or mad ~

Glittering memories are always the most dazzling painful ones ....because they fade away~

The time i met Aki was the best 6 months of my life ~...i wish i could go back there ~

but i always ask for impossible things ne ~


Life may be tough and saddening~...

all i could do is cling on to the last remaining faith and hope that i have ~~

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its hard i know ~

to keep your own principles...but stay strong my friends ~

KINZOKU no chikara ga aru ~


ganbate kudasai ~

-miyuki-