Explained with music! XD

" I try to be perfect but nothing was  worth it . I don't believe it makes me real"

These words basically reflect the past few months in one way or another.

The past few months has me feeling like everything is so PLASTIC!

You know how when you where a rebellious teenager and feel like "it's me VS the world" thing ? Yeah ...that feeling!

I found myself drowned in paperwork listening to various bands ...when words fail , music speaks ....

I'm not bothered by the paper work ( well I am but paperwork won't make you feel plastic)

It's just that the world is build in a way where we have to "PUT UP A SHOW" all the time ...

Long story short? They expect and want to show others .....

THIS

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But we feel more comfortable in our own skin and just wanna have some ...


FUN!!!

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( pun intended ...lol)

But when "playing classical finger style guitar perfectly at the age of 5" is expected of us and we end messing up a little here and there , dissatisfaction comes running through... and you hear things like " How can this be? you are expected to do great and put up a good show ...yet you wore your bow-tie backwards " or " Yes you smiled but your teeth were yellowish...how embarrassing ! " 

Hearing that, we become less motivated and end up feeling like 

THIS
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Every ounce of motivation and probably passion to do our best is extinguished .....

I'm not talking about failing at something or making a mistake and facing the music for it ...I'm talking about people trying their best and having fun and learning in the process but PERFECTION is expected ...clean cut , zero mistake ,PLASTIC like output is expected  ...

We have to remind ourselves that we are only human and we can't be perfect even if we try to...Let's be creative , thinking out of the box and giving a chance for people to develop in a healthy mindset .... 

Disclaimer: I'm not trying to be rebellious nor do I feel like the world is against me . I also don't feel like I'm better of alone ...lol ....I'm just trying to tell everyone that PLASTIC is expected of us and we should be allowed to " BE LIKE WATER" ( yes, a Bruce Lee quote haha), flexible so we can be the best of ourselves ... coz we are the most productive that way....

WE AREN'T MADE OF PLASTIC  and PERFECT doesn't exist ! unless you exist in the trucks in the video below .... 

Well , if you are reading this THANK YOU!! you have managed to read through my rants and I appreciate it haha ~ 

Something mellow maybe?

Ohisashiburi...

Since my last entry , I lost 4 tooth and got my braces! Yes! after all these years!

How are you lately? I hope you are coping ! I find it hard sometimes though ! with so much things to absorb in such limited time and brain space !

Feeling a little congested again ....

And I should also ease up on watching sooooooo many crime shows and real life crimes!!

I had a really nerve-wrecking nightmare about a takeover. I was lead , together with a large group of people ( by some sort of militant group) to some other location. There was a passerby. A farmer or something....and then one of them ( the militants)took out his gun and shot the poor guy! They then ordered us to the ground and started randomly shooting people!! Watching and listening to people get shot one by one , not knowing when the bullet will hit you is horrifying!!

           Woke up with a headache ...on a Monday morning ...yeap! I also managed to give myself extra work by spilling my morning coffee all over the table !

On the bright side, I am getting used to eating with the braces and all...and yoga + aerobics helped me clear my mind a little !

Owh well!

Time for a mellow song ?

quote from the lyrics ...find it really nice ~ :)

" For don't you wait ...for the faster you let go , you will receive what you need"

Mid autumn festival during summer !! And some ranting ....nyah!

Well it's September !!

I accompanied my friend to the parade yesterday and also went to the stalls with friends today!

It's summer all year round here but we still celebrate mid autumn festival here ! 

I even made mooncakes for the very first time!! Shanghai style! Made them with my lovely friends ! ^^ we made 60 in total! 

This was taken by a friend before the parade ~

After that we had dinner ~  at some place called Bull's Grill~ 

 *ranting starts*

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The people at the next table weren't very nice :( 

I know my set of chomps are overcrowded has a very bad case of overbite and are over protruding ... but having that as a topic of conversation isn't very nice !

I'm a little used to people giving me that look when they see my teeth....but talking about it out loud is really .....unbelievable... 

Been really self-conscious about it ... so i'm glad that I made the decision to get it over and done with ~

Good news is I'm getting my teeth removed  next week ( 2 molars and 2 premolars...yes...you read it right 4 IN ONE GO!!!) 

I'll get my braces on my birthday...in the town I was born in !! 

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I'm glad I have the support and encouragement I did to get my teeth fixed...I'm lucky...

Some people have conditions that cannot be fixed and it is sad when people start judging, talking and laughing about it ... I'll be lying if I said I'm not hurt ... so please people! Just be nice! If you really wanna talk about it then take it somewhere else...don't talk about it then and there !! huhu

Wow...such a serious topic eh ~ 

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~sigh ... Well if I take a look at it in another perspective and shift my paradigm ..I'd say this is who I am ...unique and special ~ Which is why I didn't insist on getting it fixed in the first place ~ But since it is making me uncomfortable, I decided to get it done!

So, wish me luck !

I hope you feel the same way ... unique and special ... the hardest person to love is not your next of kin, your family or your boyfriend/girlfriend ... We all know deep inside, ....that the hardest person to love is ourselves. Don't you agree? It's easier said than done but we should at least try to do that! I hope you do...

I always put music at the end of my blog...for some reason I have this song stuck in my head !! enjoy!! cute but disturbingly morbid (in a funny kinda way??)! XD

Jya,oyasumi! Matta atode ne ! 

Thorn between choices....

Ohisashi buri...!!


been long since an entry...

I have nothing much to blog about...well nothing really interesting happening lately...

Well there is one thing ....

One of my favourite band is finally coming here ....and i'm thorn ...to go or not to go...I have till 10 am Monday to decide...

I'm not so sure everyone enjoys rock music the way I do...or are there super extreme crazy fans out there....

So going alone to this concert scares me ...it is also in an unfamiliar city!! I have never been to a concert before and it will cost quite a sum...

I have no one to ask ...haha

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Well a little ranting can't hurt right....

I know how often ppl say that the're tired...but I have been feeling sleepy  all the time ....maybe it's because my body isn't used to the new routine....exercise...I feel healthy but also tired the next day ....

I'm probably also mentally tired ....so many things happening that I can't really say ...haha

Sometimes you just have to block it out ...but sometimes it builds up inside and frustration and impatience comes in the way ....

I hate it when I get frustrated by the slightest things....Is there anyway to fix frustration???

I know ...it's my weakness haha ....Well there is a way to relief some frustration! and that's music ....

Been listening to familiar songs and not the new ones...I barely have time for other stuff ...so I can't catch up with Alice Nine's new songs ...LM.C and OOR are on tour and I'm no longer catching up with SID ....missed a lot of their live interviews and so on ~ ....oh well ...I guess that phase of being interested in music and keeping up with their latest releases is over :( ....

I hope you are doing well and fine ...haha ...And I hope you forgive me if you happen to come across my frustration...hontoni gomennnasai ....(>/\<) ....

And I found Yasu's full cover of 1/3 junjou na kanjou !!!





Acid Black Cherry - 1/3 no Junjou na Kanjou from yungiez on Vimeo.

My ride arrived ....

Ride arrived on Thursday!!!

I'd post a pic but I decided to keep my life a little more private from now on?

I love it ...though i've read not so promising reviews about it ...I love it and that's all that matters !

Been in a slump lately...maybe because I feel so saturated with stuff!!

I feel like something had gone amiss or something ~

And then I remembered ... lol I've been stuck at home with no place in particular to go for the past 3 days !

So I decided to go to the mall just to get some stationery...Get to drive my car around for a bit and I felt better I guess !!

Gosh I feel sleepy all the time !!!

I guess it's time to call it a day !!

Tomorrow is Monday !!! ( not that it needs reminding ...but still...)

Heads up brace yourselves ...coz things comes and goes !!!


Hey !! if you teleport to the US right now it'd be 9am in the morning !! ....

Nyah !!

Music of the day !! :)

English song this time around ~




Ganbare !!! Genki ni natte !!!

Life so far? MY FIRST RIDE !!!

It would be unfair to you to say that I am tired , busy and exhausted ... because I bet you feel the same way too right? Who Isn't? haha

Anyhoo...I feel as if my brain is clogged up!! But I feel better after a good shower and writing an entry ...with a cat on my lap....Strangely,...it is sitting up straight looking at the computer screen as I type!! nyan !

Big issues lately? well you've read them all in the papers and seen them in the news right? so i'll bore you if I start talking about those issues  ( like haze and all)

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"stolen pic form other websites" haha

So how's life you ask me?

I'm getting my first carrrrr!! well, I waited for almost a month now since I decided and booked it ....

I thought I'd get it on the 22nd but no ! and they said Wednesday ....which is today....They also mentioned that I'd have to wait at least 1  to 2 months for the body kit and chrome parts to be ordered form Japan since it was out of stock (and because it was a limited colour ....can you imagine!! grey as a limited color!!!)So what can I do but wait and anticipate for today right?? XD

I had a workshop today ...and during the lunch break I made a beeline to the  car and headed home for my "nasi lemak" which mum promised me she'd get ... and also news for my car !!

Alas ... they forgot to reserve the number I wanted . Now they had to get it from another small town ...which means ...I won't get it today ! ... GOOD NEWS is ...they found another branch with the body kit and chrome parts in stock!! YAY !! I'm hoping to get it tomorrow ... but I doubt it... I don't have to wait much longer so *clapps*

how bout you? Do take care because of the haze ... !!!

Well my eyelids are falling which means ..........................................Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
（￣、￣＠）ｚｚｚ・・ねるよー

2am...and listening to ABC

Um...not as in "ABC' the alphabet song ...but Acid Black Cherry

It's the name Yasu carries for his solo carrier ....

Yeap...another music based blog post

It'll take forever to explain why a solo act would take up a band like name ...but long story short ...ABC is actually a solo act by a guy named Yasu and he uses support band members ...

You COULD call them a band since he basically sicks to the same support band ever since he started his solo carrier...

Like the drummer Jun-ji ... he us just a support member.

Haha but don't look down on the "support member" status ....he was the ex-drummer for the all so famous SIAM SHADE!!!

Aiji was a roadie for Siam Shade once ...and Junji Sakuma ( Aka Jun-ji) appeared as a support drummer for LM.C's Chemical Kingtwoon PV !!

O-o

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Anyhoo I was listening to some of ABC's song and Yasu did a cover for Siam Shade's 1/3 Junjou no Kanjou  ( 1/3 true feelings)

This song is one of my fav ending songs in the Rurouni Kenshin anime!!

Yasu's voice and the new arrangement really complimented the song and made it "refreshing"?? !! ( I should brush up on my vocab!) ^^''

Have a listen !! ^^

I couldn't embed the live preview because it is uploaded at their official channel so if you are curious, click HERE

If you wanna listen and watch the original version by the original band click HERE

Really brings you back to the 90-ies lol !! ahem...same drummer in the two videos by the way.... only older ( already in his 40-ies), has brighter orange hair and wears eyeliner instead of sunglasses . ..:p

Hope you enjoyed my music review today!

Stay genki!!

Update!!

Hello !

Well...i have to apologize again for the long hiatus !

The last post was during the mid semester break and also after my interview !

Results for the interview are coming out soon so wish me luck!!

Semester break is gonna be in 4 days!!

I never really have anything to blog....maybe stuff to rant about but nothing to actually write about !!
I guess I have something to write about today!

Went for facial treatment for the first time!! isn't too bad...I found out that my pores are all blocked up >///<

Well the beautician suggested something to prevent water retention and preserve energy and ...

black fungus , goji berry/wolfberrys and red dates mixed with rock sugar  might help with that

Gonna try this for a month and see if it improves my complexion and increase my iron levels ( which I lack!) !

Honestly I don't have much confidence with my looks ... so i need start taking care of myself more :p haha ^^''

I'm looking forward to my 2 week break ....I could finish up a lot of my work that is left hanging !
And OF COURSE relaxing ^^

how bout you ? doing well? keep in touch!!!

Japanese Fanatic

 Hello again !^^

If you know me well enough you'd know that I'm in love with not only Japanese music but also Japanese culture !

I've been away for a week now ( not to Japan ...) but this town has unexplored places with Japanese stuff...not much ...but I guess I went at the right time ~ ^^

Went for Japanese food and had salmon ...huhu I wish they sell fresh sashimi grade salmon here ~

Got something from Taiwan too!! They included narutomaki or naruto shaped like a pig instead of the traditional shape !! Too cute ...in Miso flavour too...yum yum ... a little too much msg though ~ :/

Bento stuff !! I like making bento ! It's a good way to plan a well balanced meal in appropriate portions ~

Seeing that I have to stay back and have lunch at work sometimes , a healthy and not to mention cute bento with all the Japanese style cooking would cheer me up ( even though it takes time to make )

I got some sushi vinegar to make sushi or onigiri ...and got some mirin from the 100 yen store. I got some miso paste too huhu!!!  Most of the bento making tools like the egg mold , bento box and cutter are from the 100 yen store outlet in another town . they only sell Japanese food stuff in the 100 yen store here ...

I also saw a really exquisite sakura bento box ...it was small and very pricy ....I LOVE IT but it would be awkward to use it at work right?

I was reeeeeeealy tempted to get it but i keep telling myself it's too expensive !!!
RM 75 i think??

What do you think?? If you found something you reeeealy love and it cost so much ...would you get it?

I'm really tempted to ask my aunt to get it for me now ><

These are the bento making tools and japanese food stuff i got !

In a phone accessory shop I saw something I've been looking for a long time ! A daruma doll! and a maneki neko ! Well Maneki neko are common here but a daruma doll is a rare find....it still is ...i'm looking for a daruma doll but i guess a phone strap is the next best thing yes?

 maneki neko...already strapped to my phone 

wanted to use the daruma doll on my phone but the bell is just too noisy ...this little guy goes to my work pendrive !! hehe

Wow.....such a long post...you've managed to read an entire blog entry of a Japanese Fanatic !! Congratulations !!! and thanks hehe ~ 

:)

Stay Genki!!!

P/s: I'm REALLY tempted to ask my aunt to help me buy that sakura bento box ...huhu....

ohisashiburi ~

Minna genki?


Sorry for the hiatus ! Was not able to find a good connection for the past week I was away ~

Gone through lots of things and there is more to come ~

Well , I guess (again) this is called life !

Hurdles and walls we have to climb . We just have to take it one day at a time and enjoy every moment in our life .

We just have to brace ourselves after we choose to stick to our paths ~

things my not go our way all the time and sometimes we give up. We can give up on many things but the one thing we can and MUST never give up on is "being STRONG".

I guess that's the thought of the day :)

I'll update ya'll on "life" in the next post haha

Heart Of Gold...Scattering Sakura Petals...Eye Candy :p

"Leave behind the past you're looking back at and come,
Flowers will bloom on the remains of the path you walked on so firmly."

"Keep your heart,Overcome the hardship!"

"How long has it been since you got too used to the sorrow?"

"Right now let's sketch our stories that resound loudly together. 
The beginning is right here."

Those are some of the lyrics to Alice Nine's song [Heart of Gold]
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Nao

By now, you might have noticed that I tend to blog a lot about music ! Taking a short break from all these tedious paper work! haha

So , how did I end up blogging about Alice Nine???

Tora

Well , I was listening to songs while marking papers and got a little tired.I thought of my friends and remembered a conversation we had  about meeting a ...*cough* good looking guy . 

As in...when you  meet that someone and fireworks appear? Only this time they changed it to scattering cherry blossoms! AKA sakura petals.... 

I clicked alice nine's Heart of Gold PV ....lo and behold , the intro for the individual music video version starts with scattering sakura petals ...haha...

lol well my point is ....I love this song ...quite motivational eh? Some eye candy in the PV too! My fav is Nao's version !!

Saga

well, I'll stop fan-girling right now haha ...before you get too bored with my music talk ! 

As usuall, if you're curious , the pv is below ( for the full band version )~ i've added some screen captures too!! XD

Hiroto

Well, what song makes you motivated ? Have you every met someone new and had that "sakura petals scattering" feeling? 

Hope all is well with you!!!

jya, matta ne!!!

Shou

p/s : sorry of the long post XD
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人生Ｘ僕

人生Ｘ僕

Jinsei X Boku

One Ok Rock released their latest album a few days ago....

Anyhoo....

"Jinsei" means life and  "boku" means "me". Well, girls use "atashi" and guys use "boku" ...

I guess the theme is life

You could say that i'm happy now....I'm doing the job that I like , I have strong support form my family and friends ...

I'm a little pressured here and a little anxious there about this and that but that is called life yes?

Life is no fairy tale , but if we stay positive and stay true to ourselves and be thankful life would be a bliss don't you think ~

In a mellow mood today ...and wasn't feeling very well so forgive me if I sound spaced out or something ...

I think i'm still spaced out ....haha

I hope life treats you better ...Is it ? I know you are trying your best though ! Don't give up !!! Let's face all these hurdles together !!!

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I think OOR made this PV based on what happened exactly 2 years ago ~ and they are spamming FB with different videos on different subtitles~

So let's listen to Taka and keep moving on in life ^^

"fukanzen beautiful days"

Or in Takeru's terms " Fukanzen Beautifool Days"

Fukanzen means Incomplete or imperfect in Japanese ...

So ...." Imperfect beautiful days"

I question Takeru's sanity sometimes ( because of the awkward PVs ) but undoubtedly he is a creative guy and his lyrics are complicated but not too hard to comprehend.

I seldom listen to their (SuG) songs now but "Fukanzen Beautifool days" suddenly pops up in my head like an addictive song !


"A cracked heart and flowing tears are proof of your existence so that's enough" and  "sometimes it's okey to over-think things ".... quotes and songs like that reminds me that I'm only human and things might not always fall into place and go my way....

Which is why everyday is imperfectly beautiful in its own way ~

Music is my dose of medicine....hehe... how bout you? what makes your day seem better?

Do take care !

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Just in case you are curious , I embedded the PV below haha ....
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じゃ、まったね！

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不完全Beautyfool Days

誰か。。。助けて！！

ストレスレベルが高い!

I have to be like a sponge ... absorbing everything ...as much as I can....My brain is saturated...for today!!

 Sometimes I hope my brain can work like a miracle and understands every input it receives...but alas ...there is only that much my poor brain can handle .....

Well , as always I'll try my best !  一緒に頑張りましょう！

Chomp...nom nom nom ~

nyah...

I have decided....i think for the third time ....and i'm sure i'll really go for it ....

No more backing down ....

BRACES!!!

saw a picture taken of my profile ( side view of face) and got a reality check of my overbite and overcrowded set of chomps...thery were sticking out like a sore thumb !!! my heredity double chin did not help either ....+_+


I'm slowly trying to gain back my confidence ( or gather more :/) so i think braces is the right option ....

I think everyone deserve to feel pretty and be confident ....sigh


anyhoo....

Did you have a good holiday? :)

新年快乐！ Happy Chinese New Year !

Happy Chinese new year to all my Chinese friends!

I'm celebrating my new year at my grandparent's home!

This picture was taken before new years eve dinner!



Unfortunately.... I was too tired to stay up till midnight to see the fireworks...Huhu...

I hope you are having an enjoyable new year too!

CNY mood ....and the interview hype ~

CNY !

In about an hour , I'll be in the bus to my grandparent's place !

I usually don't get that CNY vibe until I get there ...

At the moment my head is filled with something else ....I'm anxious about my interview ....which is normal...

I worry too much ~ haha

Well, packed all my stuff ! Need to freshen up and get ready for the trip!! ( why do I have a feeling that i'm gonna forget something?) ^^''

Anyhooooo.....

Happy Chinese New Year !!

新年快乐!

A Train Wreck !

" I feel AND look like a train wreck!!!" 

Was what I said yesterday after sleeping my entire Sunday away because Mr.Flu ~ 

and.....I came back from work today saying the same thing ....and someone replied, ..

"Have you been on a train wreck...lol..."

 Well obviously...no ...but with scruffy hair , a red runny nose and a very sexy voice *cough* ....I feel like a train wreck ! 

Chinese New Year is just around the corner and not all preparations are done yet ...=_=

Owh ! I'm in a new school environment now...much younger students and more disciplined too....

Of course there is stress involved but I guess I should learn to cope with it by now....

And good news is it is in the morning ! I DO have to get up early in the morning ...but i feel like i have more time if I wake up early and have afternoon and night free :) ...the day goes by faster that way and i feel like i have more time...

Rilakkuma says " ato gofun" another five minutes...

Exactly how i feel early in the morning when I stay up too late watching a crime documentary at night ! lol

Anyhooo.....Do take care not to get sick ! seems like it's flu season !! take care everyone :)

Have a nice week before the holidays !! <3 nbsp="" p="">

Something to remind me to smile...

Ogenki desuka?

Kinda learning a lot of things as I go....there is so much for my brain to digest I hardly could rest mentally...haha...I'm sleepy all the time!

workplace is nice, everyone is nice n helpful there....and students are...well STUDENTS lol ...

On another note, got this for the car... cute! it will remind me to smile even if I'm tired。



Things might not always go our way....and we sometimes make mistakes, but we are not alone in this world. You and I have family and friends to help is forget our problems and laugh them all away . :)

I hope you feel the same way.

Ganbare! Genki ni natte ne!

To motivate students..

So.... I went shopping...lol got everything I need :)
Got these for students...I hope they like this
I'm starting to understand the PBS system too.... Will ask more and hopefully learn more. Well oyasumi! Going jogging at 6.00 am! I should be sleeping!

blogging again !

Hi all!!

I'm not sure if i still have any readers since I stopped blogging ...but anyway , HAPPY 2013!!

I have lot's to say but then , where do I start ??

Well, i finished my teaching practice ( a very challenging one) , my thesis and yes i finally graduated back in October.

Currently back at home . The house got a really good upgrade and is almost done ( very comfy :D ) and i recently got a job as a replacement teacher ...30 minutes drive form my home !tomorrow would me my second week. stressing a  little about the PBS system but happy that i'm learning something ! (i came back smiling after Saturday's meeting~)

Working in the afternoon means one thing, i'll have to sacrifice my jogging time! I love jogging! so, at the moment I'm doing only very light exercises ~ Keeps me alert and positive :)

As for guitar , i'm still practicing it everyday and finding new songs to learn. I figured I should pick up some English songs and maybe Mandarin songs eventually....at the moment Akane showed me a song my Christina     Perri [ A Thousand Years] ....it's mellow and has a really good acoustic to go with it ! so look forward to a guitar cover !

Owh! got a call from a friend ~ going out for shopping i guess ehe ~

I'll be updating more I guess ....short blogs with pictures haha....

Stay genki everyone ~ ^^