as for today ...
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sou ...not so bright for me na...
not feeling well today...feeling tired emotionally and also physically ~
how do i put this...hmmm
This semester is kinda tough ne ~
Mostly my major subject's assignments are toug and challenging ..at the same time pretty pointless . you can say that i am not motivated ~
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On a blue day like this ..i was able to have time ..and there is a crack , not to mention a small space where my old self kinda leak out ~
I was able to control half of it ~ ..trying to make sense of why people acted the way they did...
" an honest mistake" i told myself
lol...bad mood can spread right?
coz i was dealing with a person in the photocopy center and noticed that she is a soft talker an slow at things...resent the fact that i wanted to photocopy a few things in separate ways~
i wanted my book double sided and another ( for a thrifty friend ) 2 in one pages ...plus 4 sets of handouts form chap 1-3 and 9 sets of handouts form chapter 4-9
...she basically messed up everything !
even up to counting the cost !
she only photocopied 1 set of the handouts and on top of that counted the cost of the book wrongly NUMEROUS times..at first it cost over 40 ! ...she just flipped to the pages with the page number ( which is 500+ ) and counted it that way!!!
i didin' want to demand that she counted it again ..and reminded her that i didn't photocopy the whole book ( up to chap 9) ! she said yeah ... and i had no choice but the show it to her ..i was pretty much trying to hide the fact that i was annoyed ! ... i told myself " if she's annoyed and i'm annoyed ...things could get worse!"
so she counted and it was rm15...double side should be half that price deshyo! then she counted it at 14.50... makes no sence at all...so i had no choice ( again) insist that she counted again...and she was annoyed !! counted again and i could hear her sigh of guilt as she punched the "=" on the calculator....
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i told my friend that people here are extremely slow going !
i mean !! pick up the phase people !!!
doing things half heartedly is not the way of life everyone should lead !
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i'm just exhausted ......i guess ~ ...
i need to relax a little ...
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tonikaku ~
for the first time in the 3 weeks here ...i feel sad ..missing home ...
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i guess i'm like this because i'm so tired mentally ~
and probably because i was watching something very emo and wasn't happy with the concept of the whole story ~
i learnt a lesson....that i need to continue my work ...or else i'll slack off and become sad that i didn't do my job right !
i'm just envious ..that others can kick back and relax ...while i have to give my all being who i am ~
i was thinking like ths ...:
"
in the end ...it shows ...who gets the points and who dosen't
in the end ...it shows ...who gets the points and who dosen't
i guess this means that people who suffer first receives salvation and a good comfy life in the end ..( and vice versa)
but i've been fighting for 21 years ~ and i know working life will be even tougher !!
so will it be worth it ?...."
it's the real deal ...but no one ever state this .. especially people who perform well ~
on the other hand ...these 'Free loaders'...choose to slack ...and enjoy their time witghout and feeling of guilt !
sigh
but if i keep thinking that way i'll be sad deshyo !
when i play i play i work i work !
stick to that people ~
don't slack !
GANBATEEEEEE!
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if you are still reading the emo post means i haven't deleted this post yet ~
will eventually delete it when i feel better and back on my track
i de-railed a little today ...
no more ~
GENKI NI NAATEEEE!
