Is everyone enjoying the album??

WOoooo HOooooo

Nothing like LM.C after Earth Hour ~

First up is Super Glitter Loud Box...

Maya and Aiji ...and the whole Team * LM.C gang are tuning in~

So teamers-tachi ....Lets have a CraZy Album listening EVENTTT!

i'm at Loud Mucker Complex now !!! hope it is in sync with you teamers !!

* now at my fav song in SGLB : Oh My Juliet ~*

^^

too bad i can't host a party at this late hour ne ~

*sings : dousurebaAAAA negai wa kanauuuuu~*

Rock on ~

All stress and worries will be turned into stardust ~

ROck on guys !

despite the hard times ...if you keep positive and find the least bit of happiness ...it will always turn out to be a beautiful day !!

Peace out !!!

Miyuki~

owh...if you missed out on SUper Glitter Loud box, you can tune in to Gimmical Impact at 11pm ...then it's my absolute FAV album on at 12 AM ~

rock the LM.C!!

busy ~ last minute adjustments ~

sigh ~

So ~

I was supposed to do Japanese filming rehearsals with the group today...

But something came up in pedagogy =_=...

citation and examples plus e-learning???

help !

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Tonight is Earth hour day ~

8.30 pm local time

then i'll be tuning in starting at 10 pm for the album listening event ~

sigh~

so ~

what am i gonna do for the hour

i'll be alone so ~

light a candle and strum my guitar maybe ?

i have to be careful with lighting my candle !!!

XD

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I guess that's about it ^^

assignments are keeping me occupied and well

the stress and emo-ness is slowly disappearing

hopefully ~

Crying ~

I guess ...it's like smoking ~

Crying ....

Or even worse ~

Aiji mentioned that " other than the mental bit, smoking is not good to ones health"

I guess crying is like that~

Being a girl that cry a lot ( and i mean A LOT), i came to realize something...

When i cry ...i hurt myself, and i hurt the ones who care about me ~

Crying has been my way of running away from my worries and self pitying~

I have been running away for a few days now ~

Not wanting to face the world ~

yeah

I said i'd face it head on ...but it seems that something is holding me back ~

I'm tired of myself ..and the image i created for myself ~

I use to hide behind someone ~

Now that someone is gone~

I don't wanna be outstanding ~

I want to hide forever ~

And do the things i'm great at ~

Sore dake de ii ~

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I guess i'm partly sick because of the state of my mind

I admit...i ran away today ~

But ...

all i can do is face it....

I never could face things ....

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i haven't cried since friday ~

haha~ that really broke my heart ~

I'm not sure what happened ....

but yeah ~

I kept thinking ....why me ~

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Sigh ~

I'll try my best to break out of this emo phase ~

I HAVE TO !

i'm not in it but i'm not out yet ~

so it feels kinda strange ~

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Change ~

I think i should change myself....

dou?

I'm still trying to recover from travel sickness.

Plus, it's not easy to come out of an emo phase after a rocky 9 months or so.

Yup, it all started around the middle of last year when so may things happened at the same time ~

The trip was a recovery trip i guess.

Coz i get to forget all the pain ( even with the crisis that happened at home)

i was depressed during the visit to Bintulu port.

Recovery was kinda easy with people around i guess.

Now i'm trying to change ~

But it's hard ~

I guess this past 9 months ...i was looming in a black hole ~

I'm trying to keep positive ~lol

But currently...there is no one here to push or pressure me to do my work...hence i'm slaking ~

MOOOOOOO~

Maybe i can be excused today because i'm not in tip top shape (health wise )

I'm still dizzy and having nausea because of the trip~

I'm not sure why but my travel sickness kicks in AFTER a trip and not during...

I need like 3-4 days of well balanced diet and sleep to recover ~

I guess i should have just slept all through sunday ~

but i had lots to do ~

T__________T

my hair is falling off ~

It happens when i'm facing stress , pressure and also unbalanced eating patterns ~

And also when the cold sweat starts ~

oh well, i'm planning to cut it short ~

I guess its some sort of "telling"

Like " something happened to me and i'm cutting my hair to show it"

=_=||

i'm starting to blog with a little engrish lol ( no idea why)

it's also a way to stay out of trouble ~

plus ~

The weather is hot ~

well see this Friday ~

hair will aways grow back ~

Like how happiness emerge after a rocky road

I guess i'll have to face a really rocky road ahead ~

I hope that we can hold hands and look into the future with a smile ~

I'm sorry for all the pain i caused to the ones i love ~

now change must take place

or shall i say....

I should grow up and forget my childish self ~

its hard saying goodbye to my old self...

i'm in the middle ~

pray

so that i can one day break out of this ~

I need prayers and blessings form all of you my dear readers

^^

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It has actually been 3 years since Aiji quit smoking and he is totally free from it !

13 March ! remember that as Aiji's quit smoking anniversary ~

Other that Maya is organizing an overseas album listening event for all 3 released albums,

27th March 2010 ( saturday)

Super Glitter Loud Box

Gimmical Impact

and

WOnderful Wonderholic

Starting at 11pm Japan time (10 PM here ) with Super Glitter Loud Box

followed by 12am with Gimmical Impact (11pm M'sia)

and Finally !! WFWH at 1am (midnight )

ohhh~

How i wish i have other friends here who loves LM.C... then i can host a party or something ~

anyways

anyone interested in joining this even with Maya and the fans from all over the world ...let me know ~

i can share the album ~

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I just wanna sleep my worries ...

But i will just wake up with more to face

so with your help

I'm gonna face them HEAD ON !

Love ya'll

-miyuki-

many things happened...the trip taught me a lot ~

Ohisashiburi da ne ~

Long time i haven't update my entry ~

well, that's because i was away on a study trip~ ...

It is more like an away trip and a time to bond with my fellow coursemates...

I got to know them better ~

Many good and bad things happened...

And i finally see and i hope that i continue to see ...that all things happen for a reason ...

and all we have to do is leave it in his hands ...

I have to admit that i'm not a girl that is faithful or really holy, i seldom say grace and all...

I think i should start ^^

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We went from KK to Miri as a pit stop (aprox: 12 hours )...and took the coastal road to bintulu (about 3 hours )'

same routine for the way back here ~

so in total 2 nights stay at Miri and 1 night stay at Bintulu ~

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Sigh ~

I saw first hand how my loved ones are dealing with the "crisis"

Yes ...something sad happened ....it broke my heart~

and my camera T___T

I was mad with what happened and couldn't control my emotions ....

Everyone knows that i did nothing wrong ~

I try to forgive

but it's hard to control what i feel....you hate because you love ~

A mixture of complicated feelings ~

All is forgiven ~

But what is to forgive?

From his point of view , i'm the guilty party ~

oh well...i guess this is where the "forgive and forget" part takes it's place

maybe it is a sign to show me that i was ( and probably still) weak ...

and that what i'm facing here is nothing compared to what others are facing~

I should be grateful ....and try to take stress as a secs of accomplishment ~

I want to be more mature ~

stronger

at heart and at soul ~

I will smile ...even if i don;t deserve happiness ....

i will be strong for the sake of my loved ones and friends who is here for me ~

^^

i now see it....

Emoness= excessive expression of depression and self pity ~

It hurts right?

when you read this...

because deep inside ...you know it is true ~ and then you start to find excuses and reason it out ~

saying that "my life sucks" ..." i have nothing to look forward to"

but in truth... i was making myself worse ...and that is why people have been avoiding me ~

if you stand up and realize how much this world has to give , then , no matter how hard life gets , you can still love yourself and your life ~

every single thing happen for a reason ....and if you try to find it...you will see that light ~

so my dearly beloved readers...it may be work stress, family , love , studies , assignments or whatever that is getting in the way of your happiness...find the reason behind all that...and you will feel how wonderful your life really is ~

Each and everyone of us is born for a reason ~

find that reason ...and live life to the fullest ~

peace out ! ^^V