Crying ....
Or even worse ~
Aiji mentioned that " other than the mental bit, smoking is not good to ones health"
I guess crying is like that~
Being a girl that cry a lot ( and i mean A LOT), i came to realize something...
When i cry ...i hurt myself, and i hurt the ones who care about me ~
Crying has been my way of running away from my worries and self pitying~
I have been running away for a few days now ~
Not wanting to face the world ~
yeah
I said i'd face it head on ...but it seems that something is holding me back ~
I'm tired of myself ..and the image i created for myself ~
I use to hide behind someone ~
Now that someone is gone~
I don't wanna be outstanding ~
I want to hide forever ~
And do the things i'm great at ~
Sore dake de ii ~
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I guess i'm partly sick because of the state of my mind
I admit...i ran away today ~
But ...
all i can do is face it....
I never could face things ....
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i haven't cried since friday ~
haha~ that really broke my heart ~
I'm not sure what happened ....
but yeah ~
I kept thinking ....why me ~
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Sigh ~
I'll try my best to break out of this emo phase ~
I HAVE TO !
i'm not in it but i'm not out yet ~
so it feels kinda strange ~
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