Dear Aiji,
I live most of my days with worries and dark clouds hovering above my head ~
But you know~ i just ate my first meal for today. And its already 6.40 pm!
The amzing thing is I don't feel hungry ---> I don't feel weak ---> i didn't finish my food ---> the food is nice and expensive ...
and the wired part is ~ it's tasteless ----> had to wash it down with milk~~
and plain water taste absolutely delicious ~
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Putting that aside ~
Sometimes i ask myself , "what did i do wrong to deserve all this?" ...
Like i said ~ Life isn't treating me so well~
All this started last semester , Via is away, plus "That"happening makes life 10000000 times harder for all of us ~
no one knows what "that" is in depth ~ and i don't want everyone to know about it ~
Which makes it hard , when people don't compromise your "mood swings" . When people think that that's who i really am ~ " a girl with a temper"
Yea ...then go about spreading stuff like that around~
Can't they just stop judging ....I'm so tired ~ Doushiyo Aiji-san ~
Sometimes i feel like dying early is the best thing that could happen to a person ~
You don't have to see your love ones go ~
it's selfish , yes i know~
but , as life gets tough, i know i can lean on Him ~
Mum is also right there ~ keeping me strong ....
remind Maya that i didn't forget his words ne~
Seems like senpai is trying her best too ...
With Him and all these people behind my back and pulling me up when i fall, i can still live on ~
Though i shed buckets of tears today , i know that there are people out there who knows the real me ~
Have tonnes of work to do so, i hope you are gonna keep your promise and work hard too!! Looking forward for that promise ~
Ishyoni ganbarimashyo ~
~Miyuki~
