Heart Of Gold...Scattering Sakura Petals...Eye Candy :p

"Leave behind the past you're looking back at and come,
Flowers will bloom on the remains of the path you walked on so firmly."

"Keep your heart,Overcome the hardship!"

"How long has it been since you got too used to the sorrow?"

"Right now let's sketch our stories that resound loudly together. 
The beginning is right here."

Those are some of the lyrics to Alice Nine's song [Heart of Gold]
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Nao

By now, you might have noticed that I tend to blog a lot about music ! Taking a short break from all these tedious paper work! haha

So , how did I end up blogging about Alice Nine???

Tora

Well , I was listening to songs while marking papers and got a little tired.I thought of my friends and remembered a conversation we had  about meeting a ...*cough* good looking guy . 

As in...when you  meet that someone and fireworks appear? Only this time they changed it to scattering cherry blossoms! AKA sakura petals.... 

I clicked alice nine's Heart of Gold PV ....lo and behold , the intro for the individual music video version starts with scattering sakura petals ...haha...

lol well my point is ....I love this song ...quite motivational eh? Some eye candy in the PV too! My fav is Nao's version !!

Saga

well, I'll stop fan-girling right now haha ...before you get too bored with my music talk ! 

As usuall, if you're curious , the pv is below ( for the full band version )~ i've added some screen captures too!! XD

Hiroto

Well, what song makes you motivated ? Have you every met someone new and had that "sakura petals scattering" feeling? 

Hope all is well with you!!!

jya, matta ne!!!

Shou

p/s : sorry of the long post XD
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人生Ｘ僕

人生Ｘ僕

Jinsei X Boku

One Ok Rock released their latest album a few days ago....

Anyhoo....

"Jinsei" means life and  "boku" means "me". Well, girls use "atashi" and guys use "boku" ...

I guess the theme is life

You could say that i'm happy now....I'm doing the job that I like , I have strong support form my family and friends ...

I'm a little pressured here and a little anxious there about this and that but that is called life yes?

Life is no fairy tale , but if we stay positive and stay true to ourselves and be thankful life would be a bliss don't you think ~

In a mellow mood today ...and wasn't feeling very well so forgive me if I sound spaced out or something ...

I think i'm still spaced out ....haha

I hope life treats you better ...Is it ? I know you are trying your best though ! Don't give up !!! Let's face all these hurdles together !!!

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I think OOR made this PV based on what happened exactly 2 years ago ~ and they are spamming FB with different videos on different subtitles~

So let's listen to Taka and keep moving on in life ^^

"fukanzen beautiful days"

Or in Takeru's terms " Fukanzen Beautifool Days"

Fukanzen means Incomplete or imperfect in Japanese ...

So ...." Imperfect beautiful days"

I question Takeru's sanity sometimes ( because of the awkward PVs ) but undoubtedly he is a creative guy and his lyrics are complicated but not too hard to comprehend.

I seldom listen to their (SuG) songs now but "Fukanzen Beautifool days" suddenly pops up in my head like an addictive song !


"A cracked heart and flowing tears are proof of your existence so that's enough" and  "sometimes it's okey to over-think things ".... quotes and songs like that reminds me that I'm only human and things might not always fall into place and go my way....

Which is why everyday is imperfectly beautiful in its own way ~

Music is my dose of medicine....hehe... how bout you? what makes your day seem better?

Do take care !

  v(*'-^*)ｂぶいっ♪

Just in case you are curious , I embedded the PV below haha ....
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じゃ、まったね！

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不完全Beautyfool Days

誰か。。。助けて！！

ストレスレベルが高い!

I have to be like a sponge ... absorbing everything ...as much as I can....My brain is saturated...for today!!

 Sometimes I hope my brain can work like a miracle and understands every input it receives...but alas ...there is only that much my poor brain can handle .....

Well , as always I'll try my best !  一緒に頑張りましょう！

Chomp...nom nom nom ~

nyah...

I have decided....i think for the third time ....and i'm sure i'll really go for it ....

No more backing down ....

BRACES!!!

saw a picture taken of my profile ( side view of face) and got a reality check of my overbite and overcrowded set of chomps...thery were sticking out like a sore thumb !!! my heredity double chin did not help either ....+_+


I'm slowly trying to gain back my confidence ( or gather more :/) so i think braces is the right option ....

I think everyone deserve to feel pretty and be confident ....sigh


anyhoo....

Did you have a good holiday? :)

新年快乐！ Happy Chinese New Year !

Happy Chinese new year to all my Chinese friends!

I'm celebrating my new year at my grandparent's home!

This picture was taken before new years eve dinner!



Unfortunately.... I was too tired to stay up till midnight to see the fireworks...Huhu...

I hope you are having an enjoyable new year too!

CNY mood ....and the interview hype ~

CNY !

In about an hour , I'll be in the bus to my grandparent's place !

I usually don't get that CNY vibe until I get there ...

At the moment my head is filled with something else ....I'm anxious about my interview ....which is normal...

I worry too much ~ haha

Well, packed all my stuff ! Need to freshen up and get ready for the trip!! ( why do I have a feeling that i'm gonna forget something?) ^^''

Anyhooooo.....

Happy Chinese New Year !!

新年快乐!

A Train Wreck !

" I feel AND look like a train wreck!!!" 

Was what I said yesterday after sleeping my entire Sunday away because Mr.Flu ~ 

and.....I came back from work today saying the same thing ....and someone replied, ..

"Have you been on a train wreck...lol..."

 Well obviously...no ...but with scruffy hair , a red runny nose and a very sexy voice *cough* ....I feel like a train wreck ! 

Chinese New Year is just around the corner and not all preparations are done yet ...=_=

Owh ! I'm in a new school environment now...much younger students and more disciplined too....

Of course there is stress involved but I guess I should learn to cope with it by now....

And good news is it is in the morning ! I DO have to get up early in the morning ...but i feel like i have more time if I wake up early and have afternoon and night free :) ...the day goes by faster that way and i feel like i have more time...

Rilakkuma says " ato gofun" another five minutes...

Exactly how i feel early in the morning when I stay up too late watching a crime documentary at night ! lol

Anyhooo.....Do take care not to get sick ! seems like it's flu season !! take care everyone :)

Have a nice week before the holidays !! <3 nbsp="" p="">

Something to remind me to smile...

Ogenki desuka?

Kinda learning a lot of things as I go....there is so much for my brain to digest I hardly could rest mentally...haha...I'm sleepy all the time!

workplace is nice, everyone is nice n helpful there....and students are...well STUDENTS lol ...

On another note, got this for the car... cute! it will remind me to smile even if I'm tired。



Things might not always go our way....and we sometimes make mistakes, but we are not alone in this world. You and I have family and friends to help is forget our problems and laugh them all away . :)

I hope you feel the same way.

Ganbare! Genki ni natte ne!

To motivate students..

So.... I went shopping...lol got everything I need :)
Got these for students...I hope they like this
I'm starting to understand the PBS system too.... Will ask more and hopefully learn more. Well oyasumi! Going jogging at 6.00 am! I should be sleeping!

blogging again !

Hi all!!

I'm not sure if i still have any readers since I stopped blogging ...but anyway , HAPPY 2013!!

I have lot's to say but then , where do I start ??

Well, i finished my teaching practice ( a very challenging one) , my thesis and yes i finally graduated back in October.

Currently back at home . The house got a really good upgrade and is almost done ( very comfy :D ) and i recently got a job as a replacement teacher ...30 minutes drive form my home !tomorrow would me my second week. stressing a  little about the PBS system but happy that i'm learning something ! (i came back smiling after Saturday's meeting~)

Working in the afternoon means one thing, i'll have to sacrifice my jogging time! I love jogging! so, at the moment I'm doing only very light exercises ~ Keeps me alert and positive :)

As for guitar , i'm still practicing it everyday and finding new songs to learn. I figured I should pick up some English songs and maybe Mandarin songs eventually....at the moment Akane showed me a song my Christina     Perri [ A Thousand Years] ....it's mellow and has a really good acoustic to go with it ! so look forward to a guitar cover !

Owh! got a call from a friend ~ going out for shopping i guess ehe ~

I'll be updating more I guess ....short blogs with pictures haha....

Stay genki everyone ~ ^^

7 months laterrrrrr~

Hontoni ohisashiburi desune !!!

7 months since my last blog !

And that was during the holidays last yearrrr!!!

oh gosh so much have happened but I kinda stopped blogging for a while !

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anyhooo !! fast forward 7 months form that care-taking post to now being a trainee teacher !!

We are all facing a totally new environment and not many of us are liking it !

For me , I should be thankful ( and IS thankful for the most part) but there are frustrating times when you are unable to control certain situations that I'm forced to face !

All i can do to make it better is to mentally focus on the good things in life ~

Getting a little more frustrating when I'm having a pretty bad flu and the school is under construction = dust allergy add -ons ~

Worrying about whether or not to see the doc or not ! I got some medication from the pharmacy...but this is the second time within a week that i woke up mid-sleeping with a nose-bleed ~ T____T

help?

Makes me miss unconditional love the most...makes me miss the warmth of home ~

P/S : not to self: School students these days are no longer innocent :/

Visiting ~

It's been more than a week since I left my hometown to visit my grandparents and also to help out with some stuff ~

I feel really at home here ~

and believe it or not its the first time ever i came here alone ... mum came the second day and went back...

i decided to stay back longer , coz I CAN !! XD

well when mum was here she drove me to this HUGE place with various handmade stuff !! it's my heaven!!

Ppl there who were helping me to measure the clothes , pack small buttons and bells were at aw at my "high" in the shop !! and I FOUND SAFETY EYESSSSSS!!!* melts * the white and black laces are so cute and cheap here compared to my hometown ~

so far no pics ~ huhu

i made a bunny for my aunt ! pic in FB basically the same with the brown bunny just a different colour . I made it a keychain / handphone thingy ~ XD

anyhooo

how was your monday?? =)

Amigurumi = Love ~

Ohisahiburiiiiii!!!

I have a better camera at home !so better quality pics ^^

I took up a new hobby this holiday !

Crocheting ! or more specific ....Amigurumi !

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My latest project ^^

Many people frequently ask me why i don't wanna sell em ~

I kinda feel very attached to the stuff I make haha.

I prefer to them as gifts because I trust they will take good care of it hehe ~ ♥

More like giving them away for adoption !

I don't know why i feel that way but yeah ...haha

Do you have a hobby currently?

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No nail polish for me :p

Being a girl it's natural to wanna put on make up and dress pretty when you hang out with friends ...

..and there are times when your natural instincts kick in...doing house work , gardening ect ....all you care about is the satisfaction of getting a chore done and get everyone smiling !

In uny i make it a point to put on make up to look fresh and not so gloomy ( i have droopy eyes XD)

So it became a habit to do my brows and use eyeliner ...when i'm in the mood foundation ect ...haha

Anyhooo... When i got back ( the following morning) I got up early to send sis off to work and have breakfast with mum afterwards.

I found myself with 5 minuets extra time ...so i grabbed the cheapo eyebrow liner from my makeup kit and went to the office room ( where the nearest mirror was) to apply it ...i found sis and mum looking at me funny ( i'm almost certain sis raised an eyebrow !) LOL !!

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the thing is i find myself less self cautious at home ....I don't worry of my looks . keke

Not even nail polish !! haha coz i have been gardening and doing random chores around , my nails would chip ! so I couldn't bother !! haha

Maybe i'll let my nails grow and do this ↑again when ( and IF) plans with Ivy to have a trip to Kuching works out &hearts

Bottom line i revert back to my old self when i come back home ! haha no make up , baggy shorts and a faded T-shirt with super messy hair ...and the amazing thing is i don't mind ^^

How about you ? do you dress up when out with your family ? hehe

More updates coming !

Updating makes me less bored and makes " doing stuff" and taking pics more exciting !

so look forward to it ne ~

Matta ne !!!

Miyuki より～

Trading in books for the spatula and the shovel ! XD

Well...Holidays for us uny peeps !!

This is considered my last "summer break" since after this I'll officially be a teacher ! XD

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So how have you all been? Back home enjoying the green green grass of home?hehe

For me...this is the first time I don't have anything in mind ..probably work?? ( nah ~)

sometimes I laze around ...but taking over some of the house work is usually the case for me~

I kinda enjoy doing it coz i actually get some exercise ( believe me ...with a dog living in the house sweeping and mopping the floor can be a challenge !! lol)

Then cooking.. preparing food ~ mad these with mum the other day ...fishcakes !! Got some tips on how to make sure the fishcakes are crispy and chewy at the same time !! ( they are healthy too..steamed ne)

Cooking is the easy part ...preparing isn't too hard either ( You get fishy hands XD) ...Pretty time consuming though ~ XD

↓ get some peppers and not-hot-at-all big chili and fried tofu

Garden !! i didn't mention getting rid of the Ixora bushes ...but we planted it and maintained it for ages ..plus it's pretty ! so just clear up all the wilted ones and trim the nicer one into hedges.

Getting rid of wild Ixora can be quite a fuss !! not like the one we planted , the wild ones have deeper crawling roots !! *ouch*

got cuts here and there haha ...but the satisfaction is there when you finally see a cleared garden !!!

We plant pearl grass in the garden so never needed anyone to come by to cut...however we still need to weed the garden ( yes by hand keke)...

I didn't have my handphone downstairs so i didn't get a "before picture" but i'll get an after picture soon!!!

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On another topic one thing i look forward to when i come home is the wagging tail of a dog....

But this old faithful dog is already 11 years old and getting pretty frail...can't do any of its old tricks or retrieve mail or the paper ...could barely walk !!

so we are taking really good care of it making sure it's comfortable all the time ...

the next step is to brace ourselves ...if you know what i mean ...i always have 15 years set in my head ...maybe longer ...

Missing his main master probably made it age faster too ... sigh ~

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Anyhoo ..lighter topic ! mum went for a wedding dinner and got this ...my opinion...cute ! but i don't find it appetizing !! is this even edible?? all sugar ...We should really stick more to real food you know haha!

Well, what are you guys doing for the holidays? part-time jobs?? chores ...learning new stuff and OH! planning a trip???

Gonna make plans to go to Kuching with a friend ...who knows eh !! will be so fun !! hehe ♥ till my next entry keep yourselves entertained !!! or lemmie know hoe i can kill a little boredom !! haha

matta ne !

Being home is nice ♥

I'm back in a small moderately busy town ~

YAY ! ♥

It's more ...well boring here but i cant think of a few silly adventures to amuse myself with !

First on the list is removing all the Ixora hedges !!

It's nice and I always trim it when i get back for the holidays but people say it attracts mosquitoes ...so sorry my pretty Ixoras....and then will plant mint instead ...I hear it repels mosquitoes?

haha

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Anyhoo....

3 years just fly by like that ....I miss all my friends taking 3 year courses ...huhu

I mean our study life is so short ! And in this 3 year time frame ,so many things happen !!

You learn plenty of things about life ...and what it has in store for us...

We say hello and there are goodbyes....

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The final day of exam we went for karaoke ! and then walked to the market where we saw a bunch of things ...it wasn't a very safe place for one to flash her cellphone and take a picture or two so ...no pictures *huhu*

But i bought something like um..sea bed coconut ?? * yes directly translated from Mandarin*

and it's good for skin and cough??

plus mum's favorite snack ..the traditional kuih cincin ???

lol

Following day went to Wojamama with non other that Yuki...i have no idea whay they spell it Wojamama when clearly the hiragana spells wagamama !!!

well wagamama means selfish in Japanese ...such a big confusion !! lol

anyhoo we had a RM50 voucher and ate very little maybe due to our mellow mood !! i mean it's basically our last date !!!

We did a little gallivanting ~ and then i bought her an angry bird as a parting gift ~

Starbucks !! my favorite is actually the green tea blend !!

not a fan of the choc chip since i tasted something more chocolaty when the java chip was out of stock !! XD

sds

↑ This was what we ordered ...haha and we ended up eating only 7 plates TOGETHER !!! such a shame XD

↑ Yuki bought me this at Starbucks ! XD Cashew nut chocolate chip cookies !! i wanna learn how to make such a tasty cookie !! yum :D

And finaaly our order of chocolate chip java...not as good as the green tea but nice ( maybe because i'm more of a tea person?? haha )

Well, by the looks of it i'm probably just gonna hang around home doing stuff that cannot be done when i'm away....I like to jump back into doing gardening and getting some exercise ...though i can't continue my evening jogs since everyone else is busy with work ...so gardening will have to do !! got a saw to saw off all the branch...i don't have to use an old cleaver to get rid of bushes !! lol

I hope i make the most of my holidays !

I'm so looking forward to meeting up with old friends ...talking about our life and everything ! ...there is till an untold ghost story you know !! haha

I hope i can get more exciting pics and stuff in my life to share ...

Till then

Ganbate in LIFE !!!

now listening to Rolling Star !! lol cool song !!!

Jya , ne ♥

P/s: 0wh did i mention?? I brought Aki back with me too ♥

But there is a very slim chance that I'll take him back to KK again :( oh well ! matta neeeee!!! ♥

SMK Raja Abdullah Bully Case...A sad reality

This is not one of my regular post .

Well , I came across this video while checking updates on my facebook

I'm not sure if you guys out there heard this story and I think it is already to the "viral" point like the dog abuse case.

It's the high profile SMK Raja Abdullah bully case

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My first reaction was "disgusting"

Naturally , instincts kicked in and we all muster out our hatred towards these bullies and put ourselves in the shoes of this poor girl.

The original video is taken down ( i think) for "too much hate" or something like that but with apps these days anyone could easily download and re-upload the video.

Like I said, my first reaction is " This is disgusting" and i naturally wanted these bullies to get the worst punishment ever !! everyone with a heart did !!

But we all have to stop and think here . The question is WHY IS THIS HAPPENING?

Cussing them and wishing the worst possible outcome for these girls (and apparently a guy) isn't gonna stop this from happening !!!

( Then again....I guess the public going head on on these 13 year old bullies is a good punishment itself ..haha)

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These bullies have issues .

Human nature makes us want to find someone to blame...parents , teachers, the bullies themselves but no SINGLE person is to blame for this.

Girls don't just wake up in the morning with the intention to make someone suffer just for the fun of it.

It must have started from somewhere and no one notice these behaviors and if they DO notice no one cares!!

These girls need counseling guidance and of course care from the right people !

Parents ,teachers, friends , relatives ....ALL OF US are responsible when these things happen.

This is only one of many MANY cases of bullying these days .

What we should do is stop being a kid and cussing all the way ....we should sit down and think of the best way these can be avoided !!!

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Last but not least for the bullies I hope they are dealt with and the case handled properly ...it IS already a high profile case .

Hopefully the are remorseful of what they did.

Believe me at first I really wanted to cuss them and hope that someone give them a buzz cut right down the middle of their scalp ! but it;s not a very mature ( or right)way of thinking LOL.

My heart goes out to the bullied girl . Hair will grow back but her self confidence won't be built up that easily. The girl is traumatized.

This is no drama where we expect the best turnout for the victim and the worst outcome for the villains ( bullies).

Know that this is only a MINOR case of bullying ... cases that lead to DEATH goes unnoticed like the one where a boy was killed when bullies slammed his head towards a locker at a local school in my hometown 3 years ago .

This ,my dear readers ...is a sad reality that is happening here and now .

ask yourselves

WHY IS THIS HAPPenING?

and lets hope that people are more alert when there are signs that lead to these behavior!

lets hope that this SMK Raja Abdullah bully case will not repeat itself

Conjunctivitis ...blury eyesight and insomnia ~

I got Conjunctivitis ...in BOTH eyes ....

more known as pink eyes ( not red ...red is much worse i think XD)

anyhoo...it started on the day i was having my first paper...

Initially thought it was just because of lack of sleep ( and my on-going insomnia problem)

but it got worse and painful...come the 3rd day and my other eye got infected as well...

Just....peachy ....

I can't see or think clearly with all these impurities building up every few minutes ....

bottom line...not a good thing to have during EXAM TIMESSS !!

and i have like 2 papers this week !!

please please please get better !!!

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Anthoo I shouldn't have but at the same time should go out ( confusing?)

well i tend to go "haywire" if i stay too long in my room ( 5 days i think??)

I intended to concentrate on my studies ... since i basically am avoiding society because of my conjunctivitis ...but i havent seen Ellen for DONKEY YEARSSSSS ( okey 1 year but it's soooo longgg)

so despite having turned down another peep's request ...i wen't out with ellen...and people were kinda looking at me like ( why did she cry???)

seriously with puffy and red eyes ...no surprise that people tend to stare ...and it is one of those busy days in 1B...

I didn't take any pictures since i didn't have the mood ...went for lunch at Kavre ...and then Movie !

XD

I have pics of some food ,,,namel Mc Ds ...it reminds me of 2 of the 4 glass i broke ( sobs)

this time it's shaped like a coca cola can ~

And it was out within 2 days ( don't get me started with the guy who pretended he didn't have it )

anyhoo...not a fan of the sundae ...but it comes with a glass so :)

↑ this on the other hand is tamagoyaki i made ...sorta a fail since i let the first layer cook for too long and now it looks like i folded in a seaweed lol!

Speaking of seaweed I like to (occasionally) take this ...it's a little too salty for me today when i took it...so booooo~

Last but not least the coke glass i almost didn't get

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On antother note...i'm having insomnia prblems...not being able to sleep till it's over 3 and feeling super sleepy when i get up....haiz ...hope it will go away when i get home :) ( in 2 weeks time YAY)

well good luck in exams and life !!

i hope everything turn out okey...MOST IMPORTANTLY I WISH I CAN HAVE CLEAR VISON BACK!!

Exam week ...viva la study

Back from the camp and in study mode

I'm supposed to be sleeping right now but I figured that i owe you , my dear readers some updates !!

Been ages since i updated !

And what better time to update than now!

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The camp was exhausting but a "relaxing" one at the same time...

Lots of complicated miscommunication but ...i just wanna point out that ALL of us really put in a lot of effort in our own part...not one of us tried to be a lazy bone ~

It might appear like some did ...but honestly ...why not look at a more positive side of things and acknowledge each other's hard work ...weather it's within the activities , in the kitchen , at the mini-library or at the one stop center!!

Just give yourself a pat on the back and also acknowledge the fact that all of us, despite study week , attended and contributed in one way or another and left an impression there .... whether it is filling our stomach ( food was great BTW) ... , arranging a book ...driving a nail into the wall ...or flashing a smile for the kids ....all these really do matter ....so please...don't find fault or debate who should get the credit...just smile and be happy that we all successfully conducted this !!

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It's so humid here !! the village was so fresh and cooling ...comfortable and relaxing !!

So Yuki and I decided to head someplace more comfy to study yesterday !!

at first it was atmosphere !! then headed to 24 hour Mc D where we staied till 3 am!

it was kind of surprising seeing that we were to the only ones with books there !!

Mc D was still full of students at 3 am!

Makeshift library!! lol since it's air conditioned and comfy !

so tonight we are gonna try to study the whole night!!

so i'm supposed to be resting up for our study marathon !!

You know...i'm not so stressed studying this way!

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I wanted to say more but i guess I need to rest up for later

here are pics !!

hope i could update sooner and with more details soon!!

Good luck to ya'll out there taking exams !! and for you working peeps ....good luck too !!

Last night's dinner ...not that nice but ...haha it fills the stomach !

This was rm2 bonanza !! wasn't that hungry so we ate a little and watched "Where Got Ghost"

Pretty funny movie ...but they could do better :/ ...was expecting it t be a longer movie ~

one of the activities...make a solid tower using straws !!we all won..but at first was "disqualified" because we didn't finish using all the straws....it was very stable though !!!

one of my fav ice-cream ↓ i seldome take this but it was so we could study there !! ^^ Mc D became a study hang out when it comes to study week ( a surprise to me !)

I find this amusing ↓

Because emi-chan kept saying how "belly" likes AKB..and kept singing the song !! how come there is a make-up brand named "HEavy rotation" lol !!!

Anyhoo...i wanted to write more about self confidence and how we should appreciate ourselves...but that will have to wait yeah?

need to catch some Zzzz's before i add oil ( ironic-ly we are studying at a Mc D outlet located at a petrol station!! LOL)

so ADD OIL ALL !! ganbarouuuuuuu!!!!!!