Chemical King-Twoon~

lol..i can't think of a title sooo~ ^^

hmmm~

Today is a Friday~ (duh!)

i slept late and woke up pretty late too~ Because of the nice weather ~

This week was one of the worst week for this semester ~ especially Tuesday~

Its wasn't entirely because of the incident in Uny~ ( some sort of argument broke out)

It was an accumulation of everything ! The stress the worries , so much more ~

Maaaa iika ~

That's why i took today to forget everything ~

but i guess i can't

Wanna thank you guys for cheering me up though!

senpai wasn't around ~ but i have her in mind ~ ( Mao here to remind me she's doing her best so i should too)

when hard times come ...you are also reminded who your true friends are ~

Those who really care , and those who just pretend they give a D*mn !

Forgive my harsh language ~ ^^""

I was angry and frustrated with myself ~

I was angry also because the only person here who knows the reason i am so emotional can't comprehend my situation and poured kerosene into the flame that i was trying to put out within me~

I felt that it was my mistake ~

telling what i shouldn't have told ~

I'm sorry to you guys who are curious about what's going on behind my busy and assignment filled life ~ behind the smiles and behind the expressionless face i put up...

Gomen ~

I'm afraid that if people find out , i will be weaker~

I'll just have to stay strong ~

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I here by ~ promise myself...that i will NOT use "that" excuse for being weak ~

Because it will make me suffer ~

I will act like i never told about it~

I will act like no one knows ~

I skinned my knee and i felt a new type of pain ....

But i will get up a stronger person ~

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Burying myself in assignment will be the best solution ~

i don't mind if i do it all ~

i just want to forget reality ~

Turns out i can run away from it after all~

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OKEYYYYYY!! enough with the emo talk!! *takes deep breath*

The weak Miyuki is DEAD !!!

now for LM.C and guitar talk ^^

My poor fingers (and neighbors) have to suffer when i'm trying to relese some steam ^^

My beloved acoustic " boyfriend" here is the only thing that could calm my soul ~ ^^

Oh~ and about the blog entry title ~ ^^

Chemical King-Twoon is a LM.C song from their album

I love the guitar solo part that by "Mizui-san" and i absolutely love h

ow they added the black splatter into the video !

It's makes you feel the vibes from the guitar strumming ~

here are a few screen shots ^^

And YES!! Yamazaki-san's V-series ESP guitar !!! the one he used befor LM.C was formed ..during his time with Miyavi!

And the black splatter/swirls and all ^^..the video editor and director did good!

oh just to remind you guys out there .... both are straight guys ( not gay)....^^""

Even though Masahito-san did reluctantly get a few kisses from Miyavi ~ X-x

The "HA!" before Aiji's Amazing solo!!!

Aiji's SOLO!

"Never let me down- Before it's too late.

Tonight, let we go- Before it's too late.
Never let me down- Before it's too late."

lol...J-english

do forgive him

^^"" you guys must be thinking .."Gosh!! she listens to THIS type of songs ??!!"

yea..i'm not your typical girl next door~ like i said ~ i have a monochrome world ~

What is "monochrome" you ask???

well, you'll just have to wait for my next entry ~

Ja , matta ne ~

-Miyuki-

A Message from Maya

つまらない奴)だ‘と　みんなに言われてる
否定する気はないよ　理由はわかる
漫画みたいな顔で　メガネに蝶ネクタイ
チビでガリでネクラで　そのうえ泣き虫さ

だけど　みんな本当の僕を知らないだけさ
その気になればスゴイんだ
0.9秒で夢の世界へワープだ　昼寝最速金メダル

落ちこぼれでも　かまわない
誰だって　最初はうまくいかない
派手に転んで　擦りむいて
そうやって　またひとつ痛みを知る

そうやって　また少し強くなれる

Everyone says I'm a boring person
I'm not going to deny that - I know their reasons

I have a face like a manga character, glasses and a bowtie
I'm short and scrawny and moody and on top of that, I'm a crybaby

But they just don't know the real me
When I feel like it, I can be amazing
I can warp to the world of dreams in 0.9 seconds
I win the gold medal for the quickest nap

I don't care if I can't keep up
No matter who you are, things never go well at first
We fall down brilliantly and skin our knees
That's how we learn a new kind of pain

That's how we can grow a little stronger~

Out for the first time

Went to the mall for the first time this semester!!

Most of you out there probably went in and out of campus a few times ^^""

Believe it or not, its been 3 weeks and this is the first time Iv'e been out!!!

It was short lived because i was bound for tutorial class at 5pm.

Had lunch , then went window shopping .

Only spent money on Lunch. Its been ages since i had a proper meal. Come to think of it, i haven't had rice since Monday. Yea , the chicken rice the other day ~

^^"" i seriously have to take better care of myself!

oh ~ Lunch was ...jajaja~

Kenny Rogers !!...This is my first time in Kenny Rogers ~

The price is reasonable : RM19.90 for 1/4 of a chicken , plus 3 side dishes.

we ordered and shared a glass of chocolate milk too ^^

Got a" sugar rush" when i was trying to wash down the chocolate muffin with the milk chocolate @_@

After a reasonably quick lunch , we went window shopping. Just to get an idea of what i would like for a new year outfit! Chinese New Year of course!!

Hmm~ i'm thinking ...A top over my waistline , with a lolita like trimming and layered lace ~ saw a few . But too bad , it's black ( A taboo for cNY) . I fell in LOVE with one of em' big T-shirts !! but AGAIN!! it's black! and it would burn a HUGE hole in my pitiful pocket.

ARGH!! i love black and white ! and both colours are a taboo to wear at home considering the "situation".

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So.... change of topic ( a more boring one that is...)

I woke up dead early with only about 3 hours of shut eye ! Why you ask??...Wrote a turorial assignment out of topic...so i have to "revamp" a few parts ~

Anyways ...i woke up at 5.30 to get ready for the morning bus rush ~ managed to (but barely) squeeze into the 7.15 bus ~ morning traffic ..blah blah blah~ you know the rest~

Got another assignment in and then headed straight to my so-called second home ...the all- so- familiar and seemingly beloved library ( forgive my sarcasm) .

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Could you imagine the blood sweat and tears shaded between these neatly organised metal shelves !!!??

oh~ maybe not sweat ,lol, coz you'll freeze here without a jacket !! haha

started "scavenging" for books and found a few ~ YAY for me ~

It was a gut wrenching 2 hours and 30 minutes of Japanese lessons and YEAHHH! the superb lunch!

headed back at 4 sharp...i can't describe how lucky we were to catch the bus when tonnes of people were waiting for the bus just a few minutes before we went~

What happened between the bus ride from the main lecture halls and the library was unpleasant!

Got a message stating that there's a meeting on at the foyer .

Had a comfy tutorial class and ...urgh~ the bus waits on rainy days~

Seems like the weather is getting nice ~ ^^ yeah ~ i like rain ~...but not too much (yeah~ me and my weather talk * rolls eyes*

Anyway ~ hope you guys have a nice weekend ~

Stay genki!

ja matta ^^

Daijobu yo! i'm okey ~

Life is getting tough ~

Somehow , doing assignments and having classes is my only salvation.

Assignments and lectures makes me forget the reality and trials i'm facing for a moment ~

Thanks for the encouragement and for cheering me up guys ~ *hugs*

And GOSHHH!! PLEASE don't worry...i'm not the kind who hurt myself ^^~ its a major SIN to do that!!! The only thing i hurt is my fingers! lol ....strumming all the while leaves my fingers rough ~

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Got news form Maya today .

Seems like they are taking time working on the album~

Maya's words also keep me going ~

He might seem freaky ( believe me he does) , but he encourages me ~

He takes things slow and steady !! Love you Maya *_____________* there i said it!!

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*thinks hard*! what was that SID song with the Geisha??

OWH!! "Otegami" i think it means "letter " ....correct me if i am wrong ^^""

I have to admit!!! The geisha is so Visual-Kei and scary * whacked*!!

But the song rocks !!

I just LOVE the way Aki handles his Bass ~

Despite his serious personality ~

Check it out!

The Guy on the left is Aki ^^

2.49 --->KAKOIII*________________________*

3.08----> XD

3.14 ---> *Heart skips a beat*

He got into a really "high" mood at the back of the PV ...which only guitar players or people playing musical instrument would understand~

Your body just move with the rhythm~

I feel that way when i strum a rock song on my acoustic ~

^^"" i guess you guys are not used to guys with a little make-up ~

Ahhh~ sorry for the randomness ne~ ^^

I listen to J-rock a lot nowadays ^^

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I'm eating well and i have lots of stuff to occupy my mind with right now~

Like i said ^^ I have to be strong ^^

And you guys will be there to support me all the way

Love you all ~

Ganbate ne ~

An E-mail to Aiji~

Dear Aiji,

Everyone has a day where everything goes wrong~

I live most of my days with worries and dark clouds hovering above my head ~

But you know~ i just ate my first meal for today. And its already 6.40 pm!

The amzing thing is I don't feel hungry ---> I don't feel weak ---> i didn't finish my food ---> the food is nice and expensive ...

and the wired part is ~ it's tasteless ----> had to wash it down with milk~~

and plain water taste absolutely delicious ~

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Putting that aside ~

Sometimes i ask myself , "what did i do wrong to deserve all this?" ...

Like i said ~ Life isn't treating me so well~

All this started last semester , Via is away, plus "That"happening makes life 10000000 times harder for all of us ~

no one knows what "that" is in depth ~ and i don't want everyone to know about it ~

Which makes it hard , when people don't compromise your "mood swings" . When people think that that's who i really am ~ " a girl with a temper"

Yea ...then go about spreading stuff like that around~

Can't they just stop judging ....I'm so tired ~ Doushiyo Aiji-san ~

Sometimes i feel like dying early is the best thing that could happen to a person ~

You don't have to see your love ones go ~

it's selfish , yes i know~

but , as life gets tough, i know i can lean on Him ~

Mum is also right there ~ keeping me strong ....

remind Maya that i didn't forget his words ne~

Seems like senpai is trying her best too ...

With Him and all these people behind my back and pulling me up when i fall, i can still live on ~

Though i shed buckets of tears today , i know that there are people out there who knows the real me ~

Have tonnes of work to do so, i hope you are gonna keep your promise and work hard too!! Looking forward for that promise ~

Ishyoni ganbarimashyo ~

~Miyuki~

Exausting & Painful day

Gosh~

7 hours of classes could really kill!! 3 lectures and 1 tutorial class. Monday is really a gut wrenching day!! I forgot how it was like to feel exhausted ! urgh! and my back hurts like hell~ the NS fall side-effects are kicking in ...

Anyways!! since i spent basically the WHOLE ENTIRE DAY IN CAMPUS, i took a few pics ^^ YAY!

Yayasan Sabah~

One of Kota Kinabalu's iconic buildings with a revolving restraunt ( never been there sadly)

pass by it every time i go from KF to campus ne~

Lunch~ looks simple right?

Pricy too >_< ...but i dont have much of a choice since the ONLY 2 stalls i like at the library cafe loss the catering for this year !!

WHYYYY!

btw the price = RM 4

I had Chicken rice for dinner too...but at another cafe overlooking the sea ^^.

The soup was nicer and heart warming (since the air-conditioning was really getting the chill into my bones and aching back) ....was too tired to take a picture.

Gomenneh~ But i took a quick picture of the sea we were overlooking. Too bad the sun set was blocked by some tall trees !

Ah~ as everyone goes by their busy days ~ we stop and try to catch a falling star ~

Now i know what Maya meant when he told us that ~ we stop and wish ne~

But then ...we never really stop and look at the beauty surrounding us ^^.

Might be really hard at times, but i think i can start liking campus life again ~

Such a long post on such an exhausting day~

I have more ^^

This is one of the lecture halls ! it was kinda full at the back but somehow no one was in front so i took a chance to take this picture ^^

And last but not least~ i'm glad i keep my room clean!

Why you ask??

Coz i come back greeted by these cute plushies !!

The dog there is a Christmas gift from sis back in 2006 when i was really missing home (away in NS) it says "hug me " on the T-shirt!!

The turtle is a HP holder plushy ..i really love this to bits coz its useful and cute! was a gift from my dearly beloved friends

The mushroom is a Mario original (i'm guessing) bought it in China for RM 7 bucks ^^ (also a HP holder)

owh~ i came back with news from Aiji-san too ^^ glad that he is okey.

He is currently working hard !! hence the hiatus ...

Here's a picture from his workplace ! yes he was playing the ukulele! hehe..the flame ESP guitar has to sit back and rest for a while ^^""

Ganbate Aiji -san!

^^ sorry for the long post ne~ my mind tends to get overloaded when i'm exhausted ^^""

I guess i need to settle in early ~ before i go nuts or something ~

lets try our best ne~ with assignments, work , or even internship !!

Let's tackle the Wind with full force!!!

and ~~`

Oyasumi ^^""

Full fledge day tomorrow

Tomorrow will be a full day of lectures !

Never had that tight of a schedule before. In fact ,last semester, i had 6 subjects from monday to

Saturday. meaning one lecture per day~ No tutorial classes if you exclude the 3 hour classes~

Sigh~

I hope i survive tomorrow! If i was still staying in-campus it would be easier to get back for a quick bath and to refresh ~

Let me just lay out something that is pretty obvious in life ~

The pro and cons of life , in and off campus ~

hmmm~ so how shall i start ~ i know ...with

In-campus pros

1. No transportation worries

2. No food worries ( coz the cafeteria is just there )

3. Not lonely (with friends roomates and all)

4. Get important news ASAP

Off campus pros!

1. No bored/expensive/tasteless/MSG loaded foods ~

2. FREEDOM

3. Peace and Quiet

4. Awsome internet line

5. Privacy

6. Don't feel trapped all the time

well you guys can figure the cons right ~ just switch the two around and add or erase the "NO"/"Not", "Do's " and "dont's " ect ect ~ word in front and there you go! you do the maths !

Pretty obvious why i moved out ne~ but transportation problems is driving me nuts!

oh well ~ Life hasn't been treating me all that well lately but i'm gonna tackle what lies ahead !

Staying strong and positive is the key ~

Will give it my all!! so BRING IT ON!!!

Blur~~

yes ! way past my bed time again~

My sleeping patterns are all over the place ^^""

I don't feel sleepy or exhausted now . Finally finished my Japanese "shukudai"

haha managed to finish it with senpai's help ! arigato ne ~

=3=...Mao wasn't much of a help~ . Iol..he just "gave" me my "Minna No Nihongo" book ~

it's already 12.30 ne~

I feel like clearing my room now but it's so late ~ XD

Have not much in mind now so...^^ i'll keep this post short~

Take care and stay genki everyone ~

and sorry for the boring post XD