Sleeping when the sun is out...awake when everyones' asleep ~

fufu~

basically living half my life during the cooling quiet and peaceful night and sleeping when it's humid and noisy ~

no cat mieowing ..no dog whining

however ...

How will you feel ?...walking into a battlefield unprepared?? and it's the battle that determines the outcome of the war???

X-X

well i get spaced out and distracted a lot...like how i am now pfftt ~

well ...i hope it turns out well ~

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Pics from my distraction and time wasting ..like ' i know i'm supposed to stuff my brain with pedagogy and micro teaching ~ ....but...*distracted* nyan~"

cam-whoring and doodleing ~

XD

Spacing out can HURT !

had my finger "slammed" at the door

the door was pretty ..um..swingy??

yeah swingy ..a little pull and it closes all the way

so spacing out when closing the door to the wet kitchen is a no no ~ XD

Sketches...yappari...i'll stick to chibi art XD

my first drawing of a fighthing pose ..ahhh * sings rolling star..."kimi no--- FIGHTING POSE ...misenagya owh owh ..." XD

If you guess that this is me ...then you are right XD

i always go out with this hairstyle when the weather is humid and hot ~ fufu

ahhhh! i uploaded the not so complete one =3=

anyhoo ~ i guess this angle is also okey ~ XD

will post the full pic in FB later today ( after the exams so..please wait for it !)

Chibi maya and Aiji...

I drew the stripes for the jumpsuits wrongly at the leg part..it's supposed to be side-ways and not horizontal ~

their WFWH theme ~

I WANT MAYA'S JUMPSUIT !

posted that at their official websit and is waiting for approval XD~

Okey ....

probably thinking "what in the world is this girl thinkinggg??"

XD

a little VK and internet privacy stuff ne ~

i'll probably wear one every time i do a YUI cover ~ ^^

owh..and my hair is tied up...i didn't cut it...

but this length ..not too bad ne ?

well see...

still can't decide weather to cut it or not ~

SUGGESTIONS!!

should i cut or not?? =3=

I did this ( mask on) because I sawl vid of some 6 ppl ...i think??

doing Don't Say Lazy cover as a band...

HQ and everything and these guys cover their faces with masks ~

so i tought ahh~..instead of avoiding my face and just showing the fretboard...i can show AKI fully ..just by wearing a mask ;P.... *gets blank stare*

not too bad ne ~..it brings out my eyes XD

which in reality is behind my lightly blue 'tinted ' frame-less specks

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i considered contacts you know...bit have you guys ever notice one thing?

All the ppl working at the specks shop ...don't wear contacts ....coz it damages the eyes ...( what is that word again =__+"" for ppl working on specks)

plus i've seen my friends ( as pretty as they look in conacts) ...suffer discomfort wearing em...

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anyways....it's already 4am..i woke up at 12 pm yesterday ( again) and slept for another 2 hours at 9pm ...so i'm comfy and awake ~

gotta study and maybe take a nap when the bus is stuck in traffic~ ...

hopefully ...i can at least maintain my grades ( which is pretty hard ...)

The felling i was talking about is starting to sink in..hence the distraction and spacing out ~

...=_=...

fufufufufufuuuu

WISH ME LUCKKKKKKKKKKK~!!

DX

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Me vs Myself...fighting against myself ~

Huahua..

=_=

first time i din study for important subject ~

the 10 days was just a waste ~

but you know...when i concentrate ..to study , i can read it once and remember it ( then vomit it all out on paper the next day and forget it :p)

so ...i already digest 1 single page for pedagogy ~

KPE...= ZERO....

tomorrow is another new day...and studying is fun when you say it is

i'm taking a break ~ for the gears in my brain to cool down ...haha

so a few days ago...was raining so neko-san here can't get out...

hehe...it always wanna find chance to enter my room..last time got let it in...

but fur problem ...so ..SORRY neko-chyan

it was basically begging for attention and for a chance to get in ~ lol

rubbing head on mosquito netting ~

finger ( head) butt ~ XD

Nyaaannn ~

photographic memory restarting it's gears ~

Creativity emerge

..umm.....yeah..somtime 2 days ago my brain stop generating nightmares

and suddenly can fiure out ( or listen out) strumming patterns for guitar songs ...SID, YUI, Charcoal Filter 's "Tightrope"

0_0

and i start this urge to doodle ~

paper for shopping list end up like this ( backside)

left one is so random ~

start with right side sketch ..then thought "might as well fill the gap at the side "

lol

Wanna post it on FB ~ ...after the exams on friday ~ ^^

Can you believe i started the drawing with the hands ~

( i usually start a drawing with the eyes )

i was trying new ways to draw hands ...and my mind start "processing"

not really complete...lol ...no shedding ect ect ~

din use eraser "lagi"..keke

oWH ~

i wanted to post this pic months ago...

as you remember ..during the el nino season = no rain

and grass end up so dry

=_+...setting to small again ...sigh ~

guess have to continue my studies ne ~ ^^

ganbaru ~

something totally random ! *very critical mode*

Okies ...

So ...THE REAL WORLD ASIDE !!

i was either sleeping eating or glued to my lappy

like junk ?

basically ~

my principal ( which isn't bad so far ) = if you can't concentrate then don't force yourself

because i feel like it wont "absorb" into my brain ...

my photographic memory won't work if i have no mood ~

and so far ....mood is way down...

obviously coz i was away from MSN for a few days ~

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totally random !!

I was a big fan of gensoumaden Saiyuki ...

Yup ~ my so called "japanese fandom" started with anime ...

and saiyuki was one of them

i stopped at Saiyuki Reload ~sometime during form 6

but these few days ..downloaded and watched a few episodes of Saiyuki Reload Gunlock~

so gonna blog a little bout that today ~

ah ~ now is around 2.30 ne ~

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hmmm ~

I spent time reading manga too ~

no worries ..i'm not turning otaku ~

haha

um...lets start with the variations shall we

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going nuts here ...

in the mids of re-watching the long forgotten Reload ~ and Gunlock ~

i was thinking..." what happened to Nataku"

there were a couple of mysteries unsolved ~

so i decided to find out ~

well One Manga ...dosen't have all the mangas in the world you know

turns out there was a series of manga explaining what happened before the "journey"

Saiyuki Gaiden ` ..or something ~

500 frekin' hundered years ago ~

ahhh turns out ..much more happened than what they showed ~

and i watched one of the many movies ..wait 2 of them ..pfft ~

summary of the saiyuki manga-anime marathon :

GET CREATIVE Kazuya Minekura -SAN ~~~~ there must be something really wrong with her life for creating the EXACT SAME FREKIN" PLOT 95% of the time !

yeah

pfft !

Plot = DAME DAME DESU !

-------

basically..every yokai ~ good or bad ....ends up dead ~ in the end

i can sum it up ~

basically girl/children/ppl ( mostly cute girls or children) gets controlled by some kinda master ...master= freak

controlled girl/children gets killed ( or sacrifice themselves ) for the sake of one of the 4 ~

Yokai master = in semi-regret pitiful at times gets killed one way or another

the end ~

in short ..every minor side character ends up dead ...ALL bad ones end up dead `~ ..

even classic movies aren't like that ~

i wonder why no one questioned kazuya-san's past ~

coz l..seriously ..there must be something bout her past for all these similar post ~

Animation

====

well the animation is better at Reload and better yet at Gunlock ....

Gensoumaden saiyuki ..more like Dragon Ball -like animation = crappy

the animation is best at gunlock ~ ( reload has some really really crappy animation in one episode....and i mean REALLY)

however ...at gunlock...*sigh* the yokai are all the same ~ ...in gensoumaden ...all are different ...

I suggest the manga ~ if you really want ~

AVOID THE MOVIE AND ANIME AT ALL COST if you just wanna find out ~

because it's a waste of time

unless you are bored like me ~ you can watch it ~

OST

++++

basically has nothing to do with Kazuya Minekura so it's good ~

I suggest the songs ..all i guess ~ to those who likes rock ...

ballad rock esp ~

the OST are the only thing that i STILL like ~

even the new ones ~

BGM not too bad either ~

nice guitar sounds ~

it really reflects the "arura" shall we say?? ..of Kazuya's artwork ~

Kazuya's artwork is my fav among all the manga i've read so far ....although lack of creativity compared to naruto ( yes i read naruto) ...it IS art ~

a great artist no doubt ~

the artwork for Naruto is not bad at all creative as well ~ ( side tracking ^^"")

Have a listen to

Mitsumete by Flow-war

( disband ..lasted only 2 years )

Shiro no Jumon ( white spell) by DOA

( not the girl BOA lol or D.O.A ..just another j-rock band )

and fukisusabu kaze no naka de by WAG ~

they all are different bands but somehow the style and vocals all sound the same ~

Now *tied* to Shiro no Jumon...starts out like a western country rock sound ...( since the main antagonist in Gunlock are in western cowboy -like outfits )

Fukisusabu whatsoever ...nice rock ballad

Mitsumete ..has great acoustics ~ ~_^ ( also rock ballad btw)

beginning... not so interesting ..but chorus are good ~

Humor?

++++

well there is always the same situation of humor ~

but the best is still the special part ( urasai ) ...where short funny unexpected comedy for those who know the 4 well ~ ( in Saiyuki reload...vcd extra )

yes ^^"" i bought the original VCD back then ~ Gensoumaden saiyuki too ~

other than that//it's the plain boing --- goku picks a fight with gojyo ...sanzo gets annoyed & pulls out his fan or gun and starts shouting/hitting/ shooting and Hakkai stays calm saying "yare yare "

............

all i have to say is...if Kazuya keeps this kind of plot up ~ she's gonna loose fans

the only thing that is nice about her work is the artwork ~

you can see that through the manga ~

newer ones that is ~

but still ..no creativity ~ ...

her other manga has the exact same faces ....not much difference ~ at all ~

BE MORE CREATIVE PPL ~

*yes probably angry because of sugar rush and not speaking the whole day ...*

冷たい 部屋~

何か。。。寂し。。。それから。。。苦しです~

何故なら。。。解りません。。。

私 は 弱い~

。。子ども みたい の女~

。。。何 も 解りません。。。何も したくない。。。何も出来ない。。。

強くなれる 。。。

出来る？

出来ない？

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i guess life will never be the same ~

Feelings are sinking in ~

reality hits ~

somehow ~ ..i feel myself changing ~

i might be the same outside ..but i'm sure ...i'm changing ~

i'm not sure how...for the better ...or for worse ...

but something is happening inside ~

the old me ~ ..is slowly disappearing ~

その感じ。。。です~

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今晩 。。。眠れない。。かも知れない。。。~

部屋 は。。何か。。。冷たい~

誰か。。。助けて~

Road to recovery ~ ...feeling better~

Hai...got the official stuff done~

stuff sent ^^

and did a little window shopping ~

I guess you can say i'm back to being myself??

Maybe ~

So happen to meet eng lyn- san when i was Photostatting the documents ~

umm..i understand now ~

people are in shock and care at the same time ~

Not to worry...

i get a lot of response saying " I'm sorry ...i don't know what to say"

well ~ a little pat on the back is already more than enough ~

i can feel the care ~

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well i haven't posted blogs with pics in a very long time ne ~

only blank pages with tonnes of words ~

gomennasai ~

jya ~

TA -DA...

who knows i "meet" these few guys at popular ~

around a size of um...half a meter ..i guess...or a size of a book ~

quite expensive da ne ~ RM 20

and i don't really need it so ~

pictures will do ~

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um....i think eating at home is the safest and cleanest ~

We went to KFC to eat and ...

=___=...found a small cockroach in his drink ~ eeeewwww ~..it was frozen in the ice or something ~

owh well ...he says many ppl eat cockroach when they were young and all ~

=3=

*shivers*

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I find this quite nice too ~

A dustbin ~

Talk about advertising XD

" buy me , open me , enjoy me, love me "
"I'm not a coffee cup"

DIRECT ADVERTISING!!

it was a "take -away" coffee cup design ....( Lazy to upload the top pic part ~)

This was taken a while ago...Domo-kun~

I dunno why i fall in love with this....

emi-chan should take part of the blame ~

XD

This was worth the price i guess ..it's big and huggable ...can become cute pillow ~

but i guess i don't need it ne ~

have to start saving ^^ ~

If i want a fender ~

nyuuu~

I forgot to set the upload to medium size ~

owh well ~

*eidt: ahhh ~ ^^ you can click on the pic and see it full sizeee~ ..wow... 2mp camera not too bad eh ~ ..compared to 3.2 pm SE with small screen ~ ..this is much better ^w^ *happy*

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I guess i'll be jogging again today ...

didn't jog the last few days ~

The main thing is to stay fit and build stamina ~

Coz stamina is what i lack...and i felt better after jogging the other day ~

so ...." do stuff that will make you feel better "

I wanna cut my hair too ~

shoulder length ???

or just an inch ...coz the thickness is bothering me ~

i'll think it over ^^ ~

jya ~

matta ne ~

Adjusting ~

hmm...

yeah...

i was spaced out wasn't i?? ^^"" gomenneh ~

Turns out i want the only one...i guess it happens~

eto~ ..like how i wrote the wrong date ( lost track of time) for the exam attendance sheet ~

And how i dropped my purse ~ ...and i was lucky that someone noticed ~ ''^/\-

tomorrow...owh ..wait..TODAY..will have to get some official stuff done ~

and get out of this room for a while ~

seriously being in this room will make you feel like junk ~

after tomorrow i'll start hitting the books ~

lol..if i can absorb THAT much in just one day..who know what i can do ( with help of course ^^)

if i study wholeheartedly ~

HAI...slowly adjusting and being back to my old self

Mum says ...dad dried our tears and is saying " you don't need to cry anymore "

guess it's not because my tear glands are dry ne ~~

I am stronger now...coz dad is a part of me ~

and will continue down this road ~

he is with Him ~

we all can feel it...and yeah =_= ..he is demanding that i get some sleep NOWW!

so ..no more " i'm having insomnia...can't sleep till after 2am "

sono kanji desune ~

un ~ ..i asked a friend to help me get to the post office ne ~

need to get stuff done ~

should i send a fan mail?? keke ...maybe ~

i'll see~

jya ~

Oyasumi

thanks to all that helped us ~

and thanks to all the friends that encouraged me ~

thanks to all that offered their help and prayers

arigatouuu ~

May God bless ~

Dad...i will be stronger ..for you and for mum and sis as well ~

Memories ...

Hmm...

Actually not many knows bout Dad's passing ...

I only told one of my course mate...

Apparently the news spread...i'm not sure how far though ~

I told the first few people ~ My trusted friends ...

In a state of shock and confusion i sent one message to the wrong number ~

I planned not to tell..but it is not right of me to not inform ~

So after the funeral , I told my HS friends ~

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I know dad want's me to come back here to take the test ...

Mum is doing fine with everyone's support , prayer and help...

We are all staying strong ~

I can't do much at home either ~..if i postponed the exam, i would have to stay back and wait..so it's better to get it over with and head back to help with whatever that needs to be done ~

I can't seem to concentrate now ( obviously) ...

My mind and eyes are tired ..no mater how much i slept ~

But i'll try my best ~

Will be jogging later ....coz i know dad want's me tp

T_______T

I have no idea what will happen to me when i see all the familiar faces tomorrow during exams

I avoided all the crowded places and places with a lot of people ~

I'm not sure how to face people and also the exam ~

;_______;

i didn't want many ppl to know...because i'd make me emotional ~....

*sigh*

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I wanna thank all my friends who sent condolences and those who went all the way just to help ~

I was actually touched when my friends came for a visit ~

And also here last night ...a friend came over to accompany me ~

Not forgetting senpai ... when i entered her blog ~ i saw something ...Consoled ...when i saw that ~

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What am i feeling right now?..

I'm not so sure myself ~

I feel like something was ripped away from me ~

Yet ...i feel like he is actually on a trip ~... still waiting for him to come home ~

I remember the days when i would sit on his shoulders, gripping his hair with both hands to make sure i don't fall...

I remember how it felt..sitting on his shoulder ..he was a strong built, health conscious man ... so i felt secure ...

I remember the times i fell asleep at the couch ...half awake, i'd feel his foot steps as he carried me up the stairs and lay me gently on my bed ~

I remembered how we waited anxiously for his weekly return on Friday night when i was 4-5 ...he'd first peek through the big glass window and we'd call his name in excitement ~

Yes ..he had his temper ...i won't deny that...but he never brought suffering for us ....

He doesn't smoke at all, he'd drink very very occasionally HALF a can of beer ~

He established rules that brought me and my sis to who we are today ~

He never owed anyone anything ~

He treated me like a little girl ..occasionally reminding me to drink plenty of water , eat enough fruits , exercise, and yeah...(giggles) wash my face in school...

Everyone remembers him for being a joker ...he can talk to just about anyone ~

I can remember his smile ..when he is telling some joke or trick ...and wondering if it will work on us ~

He loves nature ....he loves the "san pa" or village ~

he'd go there visiting relatives ...old and young ...and would not hesitate to help ~

He wanted to retire there ....

But God has called him back ~

The night before the funeral ...

I wasn't sure if it was just something i pictured or a dream ~

Dressed in a smart coat , he was sitting on the garden full of lush green grass and colourful flowers like he would sit on the floor ...

he had a smile on his face...and he said " What to do? the Big Guy want's me back"

i had tears in my eyes ....

Happy coz he is back with the Lord ...and sad because he left us ~

but Dad ...you have fulfilled your duty of securing a future for me ~

so you can rest in piece ...

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The Funeral

Dad was laid to rest Friday morning ~

I hasn't been raining in my hometown for quite sometime ~

But the night before the funeral , it started raining...

it rained ..all the time, non stop ...from the hospital to Church , from the church and during the funeral ...it wasn't pouring heavily...some sort of light rain ..a little heavier that a drizzle ~

somewhat , it consoles us ~ ...

Surprisingly after the funeral ...the rain stopped ~

and it hasn't rained since ~

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In Loving Memory of my dad

1959- 2010

I love you dad ...

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I have a favor to ask ^^

Please pray for his soul ~

Prayers ...it helps ~

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In Loving Memory ~

At Wednesday 14 April 2010 ,10.10 pm...

My loving father passed away peacefully ~

rest in peace Dad...

I will always love you ...

And i miss you ...

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Thanks to all that helped us through this

寝苦しい！！

ええと。。。

ねむれない。。。か

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明日から 勉強し始める！！

試験 があります から~

皆。。頑張る。。？？

えっ。。。 今。。 4寺 30 分 ぐらい。。。ですよね~。。

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じゃ。。。

おはすみ~

お休み と お早う。。。。

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(笑)

p/s: シド の DVD を見ました

楽しいかった です！ 。。(笑)

Mission failed pfftt

Tea and bored ...not going well

haha

the plan to trick someone failed ...pfft

but tanoshikaata desu

gomen emi-chan

XD

LM.C

etoo ~

ano

sono ~

FFFUUuufffffhhhhhhh *cries*

Really "gan dong" ...what is that in english again??...ouhhhh i can't think!!

yes! touched ~

really really touched

haha...nuf said ~

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eto ~

LM.C is touring around Germany touching the hearts of many and also finding out how much music can break barriers of language ~

Maya and Aiji...

are on a journey

and so are we ...

each and everyone of us dear readers ~

each and every single one of us have struggled to be where we are today and we must continue to hold hands and pierce into the future ..FULL THROTTLE !!

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Lyrics are out ~ you can now click the link at my sidebar to view translations ~

fu ~ my rough translations were right >______< ... luckily ~

and yeah...like i said ..the last 3 songs , Meteorion , Bokura no Mirai (Our Future) and Wonderful Wonder world ....we all can relate to that song...

I want to share these 3 songs with all of you...because it holds deep meaning for me and LM.C * Teamers all over the world ...

it is better than commercialized artist ..i don't wanna mention who or what song ...

But don't you think that songs ( esp english ones) are too meaningless and not our culture ?

let me tell you that even though LM.C dresses that way...they put a lot of effort and heart to write songs that would break down barriers ~ culture and language ~

these 3 songs are everything that i love

...listen to the flow of music and also the heartfelt effort put into these 3 songs

if you can feel that ... you are as passionate to music as i am ~

BTW...in case you haven't notice ~ LM.C is no where near heavy metal...haha

more towards pop-rock, electro rock and also J-pop ~

have a listen ~

you might be amazed ~

^^

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p/s: might post about life later XD

need to bask in WFWH and relax for a little ~

jya matta ne ~

-Miyuki-

News from Maya!!! Ieeehhhhyyyiiihhh ---No electricity?? ----last assignment struggle ~ YEaaeeehhhhheeehhh!!

Warning: first part is all fangirling ...lol

*Sa ..YARODOMO!! JuNbIwA IIIIIIIKAAAAAA!!!!???

KIIIIKOOOEEEENAIIIII!!!

YEEEAHHHHEEEEHHHHH

yeahhh eahhhhhhhiiiii

*_______________________________________*

chyoooto....

=_=

=/\=

sumimasen...the Maya in me escaped ....

Should be more cool calm and collected like Aki-san

lol

I get over excited since i heard of Maya in Moscow Russia ~

Stay genki guys ~

Ahhh...speaking of which..today is their Live in Hamburg (Germany)

ganbaate kudasai !

AHHHH

and you know...their Drummer this tour is not Death-o-san

GET THIS...their drummer is YUYA!!

XD

Guzen??

Aiji real name is Shinji...Shido's Guitarist - Shinji

Masahito and Masao ..lol ( vocals)

NOW!!

Yuuya (Shido's Drummer) and LM.C member-tachi on drum ...= YUYA!!

I thought i heard it wrongly from the Live ...pfftt~

LM.C's back up on bass is Akihito...pfftt...just kidding...

it's Ken-chan...( ehh! chan??!!) lol...but i miss Hiko ~ somehow

LM.C's backup on Keyboard is still Jun- san ^^

Rock on guys ~

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OWh...

Maya posted somthing before they went and after the Album listening event !!

haha

he called it a cheapo thingy ...but it was fun with all teamers all over the world ~

He wanted us to post pre-tour resolutions ...

haha

unfortunately i was busy that week ..so i didn't post any resolutions ~

HERE is Maya's post

well

Like Aiji- san said , Maya's lyrics writing is getting better ....

Proof is Meteorion and Bokura no mirai ...not forgetting Wornderful Wonder World...

these 3 songs hold a great deal of meaning and motivates ...(if you have basic knowledge of japanese you'd know)

Like Maya said ...this album is "wakariyasui "...easy to understand ~ ^^

okeis ...enough of my fangirling hehe

p/s : i have no idea why i call Maya so informally and yet i call Shinji Aiji-SAN...it's wored when say Maya -san...but not when i call Aiji-san ...=_=''' some refer to Aiji-san as Aiji -SAMA

0_______o.....

oh well ^^

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Tomorrow will be Japanese individual presentation...

and also the showing of our Japanese mini Movie assignment ~

then...since i heard that there will be no electricity ...i asked Miwako -chan if we would go see a movie to spend the day ^^

I'd be super dark and stuffy in my room w/o light and the fan so ~

hehe ~

anyone want's to join??

after tomorrow..all assignment stress will be taken off !! yeahhheeeii yeai yeaiiiii (Maya's MC cry !)

Confession to someone ....

I....

I....

watashi......

etooo~

ano~

sono~

*twiches*

YES I HAD TEA TODAYYYYYY!!!!

*fails*

*wacked by emi-chan *

but not yesterday...haha

my head hurts today...so i have to take a dose XD~

sa

before i sign off and head to bed ~

gomenneh (sorry)

for the fangirling XD

better than an emo post right??

I'm starting to see things at a brighter side ~

isn't easy...but when you look around ..people really do care ...

I keep a reminder at the door T____T to remind me bout my mistake ...

getting mad emo and crying wont get you anywhere...remember that ^^

Love you all ...

* hugs and kisses*

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Senpai...get well soon...now is "sick" season since the weather is changing constantly ~

everyone..please stay healthy ....

the flu-cough-fever season is kicking in....Akane nee san is also having flu ~

drink plenty of water guys ~

i'm starting to feel the virus coming !! ...

Senpai pass to Mao ...Mao pass to Aki...Aki pass to me ...+_=

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ahhh

hai hai...

korede ..owarimasu

stay genki minna

will save the YUI "cosplay" pics for my next entry ^^

jya...

Matta ne ~

YEAHHHHiiiii

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* Are you ready rascals !!

Surreal dream...PC braking down !! YUI cosplay??

Yiiiia ho0o0o0o0o0!

dareka imasuka??

* very random*

Anyways...

last night ~ it was cool...suzushi desu ~

so i used the blanket ....XD

felt really ...eto...comfy and all

guess that and after getting a "stare" from Mao- san..made me dream bout Mao and Aki

0______________0

and in the dream...Mao is my brother *________________*

Aki is somehow living with us and....

he is spying on Mao or something

=_="" pretty wired dream ...

can't remember the details ...and i won't sat the ones i remember ..lol

because it's too wired ~

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anyhoo~

My sugar level was at high yesterday....

fortuntely ...there was no headbangging ~

Just crazy webcam stuff with a friend XD

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My PC is starting to break down

Again...the desktop was blank and SUPERantyspyware was dying on me and making things worse

somehow i managed to fix the glitch for Microsoftwords ~

unfortunately...many files have gone to the grave~

oh well ~..at least the PC is still running T_____________T

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um....you guys might find me a little out of character today???

maybe a little too *high tensyon * yesterday before the presentation thingy ~

now all that is left is Japanese assignments ~

APK final report

and the redo of the Marketing report ~...

( VIRUS NO BAKA)

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speaking of virus ...

Senpai~...

mou daijobudesuka?

hope you get well soon...

Mao told me that you are still coughing desu T^T

get well soon ne ~

Aki got back safely ^_^

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YUI cosplay??

if people can cosplay Maya and Aiji-san

then i can cosplay YUI..lol

i'll leave that for my next post ne ~

too tired to blog any longer ~

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tsugi no bulogu wa ~...shiken to YUI no hanashi...ahhh! soshi te ...SIDo no singuru ririsu ~

TANOSHIMIIII!

jya ~

matta ne ~

otsukaresama deshita minna ^^

The semester ending

Ahhhhh...

long time since i blogged ~

Last week was high tension week desukara ~

I should probably stop using random Japanese ~

XD

Anyhooo~

there was one point where i snapped...

which left my heart with a scar...

but let's forget the bad stuff shall we ??

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So ...

all in all

there is always the ups and downs...

Hmmm...

I was in a daze the whole time so ...everything seems blank...XD

but overall...i learn how painful it gets when you get sad and angry for little things

i didn't just scrape my knees

i got a few bullets in my heart

and I myself pulled the trigger

i guess my own version of "immunity" isn't achieved yet

I'm trying to snap out of it ~

^^

the good stuff was

XD

Bintulu trip

there was the bus ride and the "little" heart breaking stuff at home ~

but it was a really relaxing trip

there was the motion sickness for the first week after that...=_+

then earth Hour and LM.C album listening event!!

HERE is what Aiji said after the event ^^

Maya thought it up so ~

of course there is the "marketing" side to encourage people to buy the albums XDXD

was fun though~

Thank you Miss...for the trip

and thank you Maya ...for bringing the LM.C world together ~ ^^

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JAPANESE FILMING AND RAINNNN

okey...

since there are people in my group that are passionate bout filming ~

our project is gonna be in HD

XD

i know i'd turn up looking silly and stupid

XD

but who cares right ??

there was a time when i laughed my head off because little miss sunshine there did a funny mistake when filming the 4 of us ...she let out a * swoshhhh* sound when filming a 2- 3 second scene showing the 4 of us looking at the flight of stairs....

we heard a * swooshhh*

upon hearing it ....one of us went " what's with the 'swoosh'??!!"

she didn't realize it herself until the vid was replayed !!

it was my first good laugh the whole semester !!!

lol...

Ling lee - san and director sama at the right ^^

quick self pic XD

Readyyyy!! Action!

ahhh no pic of little miss sunshine XD

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ahhh

el Nino is finally easing out as reported by The Star ~

* sings W-inds feat G-dragon song..* "Ruuuaaaaaaiinnnn isssssuuu faaaaaaalllinggg over you and me-ee"

YUI's " namidairo " feel XD

wearing a jacket for the first time in ages !

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guess that's all from me and my 2mp cam ~

accidently set it to small...but...oh well XD

matta ne ~

Is everyone enjoying the album??

WOoooo HOooooo

Nothing like LM.C after Earth Hour ~

First up is Super Glitter Loud Box...

Maya and Aiji ...and the whole Team * LM.C gang are tuning in~

So teamers-tachi ....Lets have a CraZy Album listening EVENTTT!

i'm at Loud Mucker Complex now !!! hope it is in sync with you teamers !!

* now at my fav song in SGLB : Oh My Juliet ~*

^^

too bad i can't host a party at this late hour ne ~

*sings : dousurebaAAAA negai wa kanauuuuu~*

Rock on ~

All stress and worries will be turned into stardust ~

ROck on guys !

despite the hard times ...if you keep positive and find the least bit of happiness ...it will always turn out to be a beautiful day !!

Peace out !!!

Miyuki~

owh...if you missed out on SUper Glitter Loud box, you can tune in to Gimmical Impact at 11pm ...then it's my absolute FAV album on at 12 AM ~

rock the LM.C!!

busy ~ last minute adjustments ~

sigh ~

So ~

I was supposed to do Japanese filming rehearsals with the group today...

But something came up in pedagogy =_=...

citation and examples plus e-learning???

help !

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Tonight is Earth hour day ~

8.30 pm local time

then i'll be tuning in starting at 10 pm for the album listening event ~

sigh~

so ~

what am i gonna do for the hour

i'll be alone so ~

light a candle and strum my guitar maybe ?

i have to be careful with lighting my candle !!!

XD

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I guess that's about it ^^

assignments are keeping me occupied and well

the stress and emo-ness is slowly disappearing

hopefully ~

Crying ~

I guess ...it's like smoking ~

Crying ....

Or even worse ~

Aiji mentioned that " other than the mental bit, smoking is not good to ones health"

I guess crying is like that~

Being a girl that cry a lot ( and i mean A LOT), i came to realize something...

When i cry ...i hurt myself, and i hurt the ones who care about me ~

Crying has been my way of running away from my worries and self pitying~

I have been running away for a few days now ~

Not wanting to face the world ~

yeah

I said i'd face it head on ...but it seems that something is holding me back ~

I'm tired of myself ..and the image i created for myself ~

I use to hide behind someone ~

Now that someone is gone~

I don't wanna be outstanding ~

I want to hide forever ~

And do the things i'm great at ~

Sore dake de ii ~

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I guess i'm partly sick because of the state of my mind

I admit...i ran away today ~

But ...

all i can do is face it....

I never could face things ....

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i haven't cried since friday ~

haha~ that really broke my heart ~

I'm not sure what happened ....

but yeah ~

I kept thinking ....why me ~

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Sigh ~

I'll try my best to break out of this emo phase ~

I HAVE TO !

i'm not in it but i'm not out yet ~

so it feels kinda strange ~

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Change ~

I think i should change myself....

dou?

I'm still trying to recover from travel sickness.

Plus, it's not easy to come out of an emo phase after a rocky 9 months or so.

Yup, it all started around the middle of last year when so may things happened at the same time ~

The trip was a recovery trip i guess.

Coz i get to forget all the pain ( even with the crisis that happened at home)

i was depressed during the visit to Bintulu port.

Recovery was kinda easy with people around i guess.

Now i'm trying to change ~

But it's hard ~

I guess this past 9 months ...i was looming in a black hole ~

I'm trying to keep positive ~lol

But currently...there is no one here to push or pressure me to do my work...hence i'm slaking ~

MOOOOOOO~

Maybe i can be excused today because i'm not in tip top shape (health wise )

I'm still dizzy and having nausea because of the trip~

I'm not sure why but my travel sickness kicks in AFTER a trip and not during...

I need like 3-4 days of well balanced diet and sleep to recover ~

I guess i should have just slept all through sunday ~

but i had lots to do ~

T__________T

my hair is falling off ~

It happens when i'm facing stress , pressure and also unbalanced eating patterns ~

And also when the cold sweat starts ~

oh well, i'm planning to cut it short ~

I guess its some sort of "telling"

Like " something happened to me and i'm cutting my hair to show it"

=_=||

i'm starting to blog with a little engrish lol ( no idea why)

it's also a way to stay out of trouble ~

plus ~

The weather is hot ~

well see this Friday ~

hair will aways grow back ~

Like how happiness emerge after a rocky road

I guess i'll have to face a really rocky road ahead ~

I hope that we can hold hands and look into the future with a smile ~

I'm sorry for all the pain i caused to the ones i love ~

now change must take place

or shall i say....

I should grow up and forget my childish self ~

its hard saying goodbye to my old self...

i'm in the middle ~

pray

so that i can one day break out of this ~

I need prayers and blessings form all of you my dear readers

^^

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It has actually been 3 years since Aiji quit smoking and he is totally free from it !

13 March ! remember that as Aiji's quit smoking anniversary ~

Other that Maya is organizing an overseas album listening event for all 3 released albums,

27th March 2010 ( saturday)

Super Glitter Loud Box

Gimmical Impact

and

WOnderful Wonderholic

Starting at 11pm Japan time (10 PM here ) with Super Glitter Loud Box

followed by 12am with Gimmical Impact (11pm M'sia)

and Finally !! WFWH at 1am (midnight )

ohhh~

How i wish i have other friends here who loves LM.C... then i can host a party or something ~

anyways

anyone interested in joining this even with Maya and the fans from all over the world ...let me know ~

i can share the album ~

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I just wanna sleep my worries ...

But i will just wake up with more to face

so with your help

I'm gonna face them HEAD ON !

Love ya'll

-miyuki-

many things happened...the trip taught me a lot ~

Ohisashiburi da ne ~

Long time i haven't update my entry ~

well, that's because i was away on a study trip~ ...

It is more like an away trip and a time to bond with my fellow coursemates...

I got to know them better ~

Many good and bad things happened...

And i finally see and i hope that i continue to see ...that all things happen for a reason ...

and all we have to do is leave it in his hands ...

I have to admit that i'm not a girl that is faithful or really holy, i seldom say grace and all...

I think i should start ^^

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We went from KK to Miri as a pit stop (aprox: 12 hours )...and took the coastal road to bintulu (about 3 hours )'

same routine for the way back here ~

so in total 2 nights stay at Miri and 1 night stay at Bintulu ~

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Sigh ~

I saw first hand how my loved ones are dealing with the "crisis"

Yes ...something sad happened ....it broke my heart~

and my camera T___T

I was mad with what happened and couldn't control my emotions ....

Everyone knows that i did nothing wrong ~

I try to forgive

but it's hard to control what i feel....you hate because you love ~

A mixture of complicated feelings ~

All is forgiven ~

But what is to forgive?

From his point of view , i'm the guilty party ~

oh well...i guess this is where the "forgive and forget" part takes it's place

maybe it is a sign to show me that i was ( and probably still) weak ...

and that what i'm facing here is nothing compared to what others are facing~

I should be grateful ....and try to take stress as a secs of accomplishment ~

I want to be more mature ~

stronger

at heart and at soul ~

I will smile ...even if i don;t deserve happiness ....

i will be strong for the sake of my loved ones and friends who is here for me ~

^^

i now see it....

Emoness= excessive expression of depression and self pity ~

It hurts right?

when you read this...

because deep inside ...you know it is true ~ and then you start to find excuses and reason it out ~

saying that "my life sucks" ..." i have nothing to look forward to"

but in truth... i was making myself worse ...and that is why people have been avoiding me ~

if you stand up and realize how much this world has to give , then , no matter how hard life gets , you can still love yourself and your life ~

every single thing happen for a reason ....and if you try to find it...you will see that light ~

so my dearly beloved readers...it may be work stress, family , love , studies , assignments or whatever that is getting in the way of your happiness...find the reason behind all that...and you will feel how wonderful your life really is ~

Each and everyone of us is born for a reason ~

find that reason ...and live life to the fullest ~

peace out ! ^^V

HOOOOO!!! Gonna be positive~

I learn a lesson the hard way~

I just discovered that ..well ...i forgot who i was ...

I was selfish and punishing not only myslef ..but also the ones who care about me ~

I didn't realize how much i'm loved ~

I kept thinking that the world is a dark place and my presence is not noticed !

And WHAT???!! i have been listening to em positive songs ...but not seeing the true meaning behind it !


YES!


I learn a lesson and i learnt it the hard way....

I hurt myself...and most importantly those close and dear to me ~

BIG HUGS AND KISSES

and a THOUSAND apologies to all that were trying to knock senses into me ~

-/\-

gomen ~

ima kara....ganbarimasu

tsuyoku nareru !

WATCH OUT WORLD!!

MIYUKI IS BACK!