less than 3 hours of sleep is taking a toll on me !
my body is now extremely weak...
coz i'm trying to control the shaking ...my arms and legs are going to "kong-out" anytime soon !
but that can't happen can't it !!!??
coz i have so much up on my schedule !
every time i try to blog bout it some new update comes and i don't know where to start !
Anyhooo ~
I guess it all started with Akane's graduation !
yup...i was super excited to attend ...and i have a feeling that i should really be there to support her emotionally ~
It's only been 5 months since Dad left us ~
He got to know that sis made it through uny ...but unfortunately God has other plans for him ~
as a sister ..i feel obliged to go !
But here's the thing !
last Friday we got to know that our initial plans to go to a place called "Nango" had to be postponed to the end of the semester after our final examinaton because of complications ....
Instead ...on the 1st of October .. w hav to go to another rural area ~
I got a shock ! coz it clashes with sis's graduation...or my flight !
I was bound for Kuching on the 2nd !
and the projct is from 1st to the 3rd !
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Well just 2 days ago ~ ..everything got sorted out ...(apparently) ...
mum changed the flight ...and yeah !
that was Tuesday...tuesday itself was a whole other story of complications that i kinda "deleted " form me memory XD
so you dear readers is spared form my ranting !
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Yesterday things got worse!
Lecturer announced that
1. we have to have our mini test next week
2. mini assignmnt to submit
3. Presentation
4. I CAN'T MISS ANYMORE LECTURES
and also some project to be reviewed monday ~
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i went back feeling PRESSURED !
and numb....
and at that point mum called ~
and i didn't dare to tell mum that i thought of not going ~
I guess mum really did realize that these uncertainties are unavoidable ~
so ....even after changing th flight ....i decided that i can't risk so much stress and pressure to go !
Believe me i wanted to go really EXTREMELY badly !
anyhoo ~
this evening i'll have a mid-term examination !
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wired ...I', now in my faculty building ~ ...blogging ...and then some passer by just poped in and took a peek at my screen !
i'm not sure if it's an honest mistake of identity or just some random thing to do just for fun ~
either way....o_O...
i forgot to bring my card reader so no pics today !
Gomen !
i guess i'll get back to assignments ...
wish me luck !
