And CNY is just around the corer ...
but i am not in the mood~
The pressure as a leader is getting on me ~
Plus ...assignments and mid- terms are after CNY !
which means that the 1 week of so-called celebration will be a study week for me ~
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I just hope going back early isn't a mistake . i mean, may people will be going back early..and if i don't i might get depressed ~
haih..i just want time to either stop ..or jump to Wednesday ~
I can be home and use the fridge as i please ...not so much of the TV ...but i could at least make konyaku and jelly ~
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I am now kinda in a "cold" state ~
someone should snap me out of this...
AKI tried to help ...his efforts were in vain ~
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the hidden sorrow ...unseen ~
and yeah~..the light coming through the gap between the fingerboard and me is nice ne~ ^^
I wished time would just stop there....
Seems like i was captured in a fantasy world that doesn't exist ...
Seems~
I was myself ...for most of Friday and Saturday ~
Spent a lot of time with AKI ....
but happiness will always and eventually fade away in the demanding world ~
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The muffled sound of Senpai's voice calling my name gradually pulls me out of my dreams and into reality ~
I realised that i have my favorite blanket over my head to block the morning sun ~
She "peels" the blanket off my hands as she glared at me - eyes wide open ...
I squinted my eyes and i could feel the warm rays caressing my cheeks ~
as soon as my eyes adjusted to the light ..i could see her dimples forming as she smiled ~
i got up and got myself ready for breakfast~
it was an off- day
but i had my book of memories on the coffee table ~...and of course AKI was there ....
i flipped the pages ~
and found a nice song that fits my mood that morning ~
I strum a few chords and hummed a melody ~
not happy not sad....something nostalgic ..
Every time i see the sunrise - and the sky dyed in the reddish- orange rays ....i can feel my soul .
somehow ~
How nice would it be if time would stop there and then ~
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The reality that would never be ~
for now ...sorrow will not leave my side ~
burden and stressful situations surrounds me and my life ~
Anytime ...a call or a message would make me sad, frustrated , worried or mad ~
Glittering memories are always the most dazzling painful ones ....because they fade away~
The time i met Aki was the best 6 months of my life ~...i wish i could go back there ~
but i always ask for impossible things ne ~
Life may be tough and saddening~...
all i could do is cling on to the last remaining faith and hope that i have ~~
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its hard i know ~
to keep your own principles...but stay strong my friends ~
KINZOKU no chikara ga aru ~
ganbate kudasai ~
-miyuki-
