No ...i didn't break up with my boyfriend ~ i don't have one either ...
And i couldn't be bothered to have one~
Just that it is tiering to stay strong ~
Everything wrong just accumulates !
You think you could stay strong the whole day ...but there is just that tiny thing that turns all that pressure you hide behind the smile into a flare of rage ~
Imagine having a big boulder on your shoulder ...no one can help you ! in fact they load more on you ~
Then your knees hurt from carrying all that heavy stuff ~
You wish someone would notice the pain in your eyes ~
you go back treated like a low peasant~ a low-life , a nobody ~ like a rag ~nothing more ~ everything less ~
All that and you still want to stay strong~
But then weakness comes staring you straight in the eye ~
Knocking on your door~...
You start to weaken ~
Then when you do ... you get your heart ripped out and stomped on ~
Yes ... it hurts ~
This world is cruel ~
I've lost almost every drop of happiness i have ~
Shed almost every tear ~
Bleed every drop of blood ~
And yet i still have more to lose ~
I wish i could just fade away into nothingness ~
The me you see now is empty ~
A shell wasting away ~
really hurts ~
and yet every bit of happiness is stolen from you ~
- The weakened miyuki-
